I do not know how I can manage to do my affairs with this bad luckiness I have! Today again I got lost my money, this time doable, 1000000 Rials! How? I do not have any idea! I did my work so precisely and so carefully that I did never expect to have any any mistake, even a smallest! But I had!!!! And I had to pay back the amount plus the previous 500000 Rials! The money has not made me unhappy, nervous, and bad tempered, rather it is the behavior of people who come to the bank and when they recognize any mistake, they keep silent deliberately and take the money that does not belong to them any more, while they call themselves Muslims and believers to God! How stupid we are, when we claim some thing and do some thing else in fact! I do not like the job! I do not like the money! All my friends who know me completely can witness this but this is the force of the situation that I must bear that until I can get used to it! What do you think?!!! I think it is better for me that I resign just now and then follow my dreams and continue my studying until to be a university professor, or I have to bear this condition until the end and finally I could manage to do that! At the first losing of my money, the boss said “you see, here is completely different from the educational and scientific situation! You may be a knowledgeable man and a scientist, but here you must be so careful and exact and pay attention so deeply that as if you are standing on a min and it is going to exploit as soon as you leave your foot or press it! Every moment is vital and stressed and you have to concentrate on the job only!” but how can I do so… when almost all of my mind has been occupied with the love of Lisa and my terrible memories of the past!!!!???? How can I do my job well when I see every where Lisa`s portrait and in my mind… I am talking with her every moment?!!! How can I mange to do it when I do not know what Lisa is thinking of me or having any idea?!!!!
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Today my first missing of money occurred and I lost 500000 which I had to pay by my own pocket! I do not know how did it happen… or where did I make mistake?!!! I do not like this job… caring others` money and having a great responsibility and no thing will be for yourself! They all respect me but … take it easy… that`s my doom and I have to tolerate it!
This night when I was coming back form the work, I saw HER, waiting for a taxi while she dropped some thing and a family there, tried to help HER and gather the things… I was in the taxi and passing HER, how beautiful she was and gets!!! How I misses HER! My God… that was not my deserving that you did for me! You… hey hey hey…
Today Dr. Partoie, the principle of Azad University called me to see him and then he suggested me that I teach in the university hourly… I said I can just teach there in the afternoons and three times a week, not more! You know… I do not like working in a bank…. I hate money but… in the bank I have to work just with that! But I have no other choice… my family think that it is good for me… not the family but most of friends… not my new colleagues… they have an other idea… and I just go there because of my Lisa and her future … to make the future better and better.. but I am not sure that I have chosen the correct way! I am still waiting for Lisa and her friendly and kind smses … not calls! I have really missed her so much…
Working in the band is so hard and so difficult especially for me who have been a way of digits and numbers and calculating for more than at least 8 years! And of course for me is so difficult because I have never had relationships like boss-worker or manager- employee and bearing such a this condition to get used to it is so hard and difficult but what I can do! I must take it easy and try to get to sued to it as soon as possible. Today my calculation got 130000000 Rials less and it was the boss`s fault not mine, but the vice president blamed me and said that I am responsible for my own calculations and no one else is faulty! They do the wrong but I must undo!
Mr. Ojaghlou, my dear friend and professor of university, called me a day before yesterday and congratulate me on my new job and then said “there is a suitable case for you to get married! She is nice and open-minded girl from a rich family and as I know you and your moods and morality, I think that you can get along well, if you want I can ask her to come and speak together… who knows… maybe you can settle an agreement and make a good couple!” I have said nothing! You know… I love Lisa and I will wait for her until I can propose her… who knows… perhaps she loves me too and accepts my proposal! I love her and as much as needed I will wait… you know… she has not answered the letter yet… maybe she listens to my suggestion not to reply… may be… so I am going to reject his idea… what do you think?!!!!
A week has passed of my beginig job and I have been learned a lot of things… I have been a person who have not treted with money and counting in this so serious and hard way nor have I liked it, now work as a bank employer and treat all the time with money and money and money and calculating a lot of digits and numbers! My diploma was mathematics and physics and my total average of marks was 17.87! but almost after that I had been a teacher of language and translator rarely did I encounter with digits until now, that too intensively I am working with digits and most the time I get extra of my receives! I do not know why but maybe because I am beginner and the equipments are worn, I get extra amounts in my calculations, (but all of that amount, I put in my drawer and report to Mr. Khame, my colleague and workmate who is very nice man, a 31-year-old man who is married having a 2-year-old son and very smart and friendly but too serious and honest! I like him. He has taught me a lot of things and has helped me so much.
By the way, yesterday morning I took some flowers and a glass flower pot to the bank to put the flowers on the table of Mr. Ali Mohammadi. I said him a day before that I like flowers and I cultivate them and he liked and so I promised him to bring some. When he and my new boss, Mr. Ghasemi saw the flowers, they got too surprised and happy and he told “with this mood and spirit, you are working in bank?!!! In bank you just can bring up some Kaktuseous, not red roses!” they all laughed but Ghasemi told “No! a bank employee must be neat and happy and full of energy… why not????!!! He can be a nice boy!” and today I brought them some books of mine, which Mr. Ali Mohammadi asked to see because he heard that I am a writer. All of them get surprised again and liked it! All thanked me and they said that you may change us all and make us read books and study! Ghasmi told “ so we must keep him here!”
It has been a relatively long time I have not writtrn here… I have not felt well to write, but I changed my mind and now I am going to write… you see some news first… first I have finally been accepted in the bank and now I am working there in Darvaze Ark branch of Sepah Bank… all my new workmates are surprised to see me there as their coworker! It is a monantanous work but at the beginning seems exciting! But all know that I do love doing research and teaching and translating… but the life urges… and of course the love of her and the desire of making the future and love for her and myself… an other news… I did operation on my eyes and now I do not use glasses any more! And now my beautiful eyes are ok and shining! And… and… aha… I made a beautiful samll garden for Apadana for the students get happy and refresh whenever see the pretty flowers and colorful roses! It was too defficult but it worthed that! And … and… aha… I wrote whatever was in my mind for Lisa and asked here then to give a chance to my proposal and then reply me! She has not replied my mail yet… of course I myself asked her not replying it any more! But I really have missed her and just God knows how much I love her! May be I occasionally write here… because I am too busy… I study… I work and I teach and at the same time I am writing my new books! And moreover, I am trying hard to make our future to reach my love as soon as possible, if she accepts my frankly proposal! Thank you my dear friend… the preplexed girl… ok I will try to write here again…
I saw Mrs. Rezaie and she criticized me … I have to forget everything, every emotions and every feelings towards Lisa and others! The mountain of my ambitions and happiness fell down and the dawn of lightness turned to dark… the dims of future vanished under the rationalization and ….
I wish Lisa could understand me and … and what if she….? I must respect her idea and her personality even if it is against mine!
I locked the way of my heart and threw the key into the deepest pint of the Pasefic Ocean and never will I again fall in love or use this word about any body else! The last is Lisa … I must cross the word “LOVE” and “like” and emotions form my life and consequently from my mind just because it is not rational!
دیگه حوصله نوشتن تو اینجار رو هم ندارم!
Today when I checked my mailbox (yaser.saba@gmail.com), I found out that Lisa had sent me a reply for a message that I sent her almost a month and a half ago! She had criticized me so much that I could not answer any more… just I wished that I could tell her my heart`s words and I could propose her… what if she loved me… ha? I do not deserve her love maybe!!!! I had written for her that “why are you against my sending smses to you… those lovely smses! Why? They are just sms… nothing more! You girls are so strange… aren`t you?” and she replied me almost I have already forgotten what I wrote for her “you see… I asked you not to send me those kinds of smses just because of your own personality otherwise I am honored to have such smses!!!! I have not thought that our friendly relationship would arrive to this point… and if I were your friend, I would always seen you and thought you as my BROTHER and wanted to help you which it seems nothing especial I could do!... again still I am honored if you count on me as your SISTER and our friendship will last as the past! Moreover, what do you expect of girls?!!!!! Why do you think they are strange?!!!!! Do you like if they play with your feelings and emotions? I feel these “without any reply smses” do not have any good effect on your mood and I do not want your gentle and kind feelings be played! If you have any other idea for girls… I like to hear… (With respect, of course!)”
It is really wonderful letter and great reply, isn`t it?!!!! I have not thought that Lisa… thinks like this! What do you think? Isn`t it unreasonable that “YOU CONSIDER A COMPLETE STRANGE ONE AS YOUR SISTER AND BROTHER?!!!” I say that you girls are strange… you say “NO!!!” but this proves my idea! First when you know that somebody loves you… your behaviors completely changes towards him! And second your only excuse is that “I HAVE SEEN YOU AS MY BROTHER… NOTHING MORE!” but in this case and if this is really true… no one must get married and all must be single!!! Am I right?!!!! In this case I really urge your replies my friends… personally or publicly… yaserymc@yahoo.com, and yaser.saba@gmail.com. Please help me and tell what I must do that Lisa changes her mind and not considering me as HER BROTHERRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!! Or TEACHERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
One of my friends consulted with me for some thing strange that definitely will influence her future life, even nowadays life! She is very lovely and lively girl, full of energy and so active, but too sensible! She is very emotional that this affects her occupation and personal life! She has had a boyfriend and loves him too much… so much that she prefers to lose every thing but have him! (Some times I feel envious about her! I wish I had had a girl like her to love me!!!!) By the way… her parents, on the other hand, do not like the boy and rejected his proposal! But she still insists on the matter! Why? I do not know… I can not explain rationally and sensibly I can understand her! You love in synonymous with craziness!
She met me so worried that made me bewildered! She said “he and I did some thing that now we can not gat back! I mean… we promised each other to marry with together… despite of my family or his opposition! “I said “it is ok… but it is better to get your families` agreements, and then get married.” She said “even in the case of their opposition… we can not gat back… we must marry!” I said “why? May be you would not be suitable for each other and they have some reasons for that and that you must listen to them!” she said “No! I love him and I can not survive without him, even a moment!” I said “come on! You are too sensible! I have always told you that let the affairs go on their natural way! What did you do that now you are so worried and confused?!!!” she said “do not ask, I can not tell you… but… now I am worried just because I can not trust in him and his love!” I asked “why?” she said” since he has broken his promises a lot of times… but this time he promised me differently… what can I do? How can I prove that?” I did understand what happened between them! They made love with each other, they had sex before marriage and before any body of their families knows and agrees with their marriage!
I said “take it easy! Do not tell any body what happened and continue your life without any obstacle! Do not let yourself decide on your future life on this issue! Let not this issue affects your decision and your life!” she said “No! I can not do that! I love him so much… without him the life is meaningless… but I am afraid … my family will not agree with him and in this case… he may leave me… and than what must I do? What can I do? Especially in this condition that we have! I am afraid of this… tell me what I must do? I said “Let the things happen naturally… let he come to propose you of your parents once again and at the same time work on your parents` minds to agree with your marriage! Do your best… but be sure… if your parents not agreeing with you and you love him so much… he follows his promises and never break your trust in any condition! In this case… you can run away with him… but it is too risky! Are you sure about him????” she said “no! But this time it is different! We did… so he can not break the trust!” I said “you can not tell that! He is a boy… and boys do not be harmed any more… but the girls are so tangible! If he leaves you… you do not have any thing on your hand!” she said “yes… and this makes me worried now and kill! What I must do?” I said “I insist that do not think about what happened between you… let no thing happened and let the things happen in natural sequences… but if not… no other choice… give him another chance… but speak with him that this time you are gambling on you life and future… on other way back remains… he must be responsible towards you and you can count on him in any condition… speak with him and then talk to your family and pray God that every thing goes well till you reach your life…” she said “ok!” I said worriedly “but in this case… beginning a new life is too risky and you are gambling on your life… you are going to establish a life on a bulb of soup… to fragile, too breakable!”
When she was telling the story… I understood her totally… since I remembered the same thing happened to my ex-wife! SHE had had sex with one of her boyfriends … but then he left HER and because of that SHE went under the support of Farokhi… who caused so many problems in the future… I knew the issue just before my last proposal of HER. HER closest friend told me that… but because I loved HER… I never mentioned it … never… but after that I had understood what sufferings SHE had bore… and just because of lowering those sufferings and releasing HER from the grasp hands of Farokhi… I married HER… with this vain thought that maybe my true love would recover HER and SHE would have a natural life in the future… but SHE, HERSELF, did not accept that!!!
I was a 16 year old boy. My mother`s aunt had a daughter, she was a year younger than me, and they lived in Bijar, (a small city in Kordestan Province, 140 kilometers away of Zanjan), anh whenever we went there, we, she and I played with each other, made a lot of fun and most the time were happy. We liked each other! And I always went there just for her… to see her and make fun… it passed… but I still liked her… until she had a candidate for marriage! I could not tell any thing to my parents… still waited and watched… and she got married… I went her wedding… but I never forget the night I cried to the dawn! Was I in love with her?!!!! It passed… I ahven`t seen her till this Sizdebedar Holiday, when we went Bijar… she and her husband were there, too. Her little son, now 7 years old, was playing and was so naughty! They were so happy… thanks God… how they both changed!!! When I remember those days now… I smile and a good feeling emerges my soal!
What was that feeling? Was I fell in love with her? Or have you happened to like some body so much within a very short time of meeting? Even at the first sight? How many times has it happened to you? To be frank please…
We call this kind of love… PUPPY LOVE! It is not the true love… rather the initiation of a true one! The true love is occuring during the relationship… within a mutual connection and communication, based on exact knowledge and understandings of the other party and under trsut and responsibility, with the mutual respects of each others rights and personality! What do you think? What is true love and what is the puppy love? I have selected some texts of my own book “THE TRUE QUEST IN LEARNING ENGLISH READING FOR UNIVERSITY STUDENTS” (you can download it form: http://www.4shared.com/file/39494306/b82b6c19/A_true_quest.html) that its title is “love at first sight, do you believe or not”, it is useful to know americans` ideas, too, beside ours. Please give me your nice comments and may be I use them in my future book under your own names.
"Love at first sight__
I can't explain it,
but it's real and
happens all the time."
__Taylor Stanley,
American actress (1976- )
Reading Passage
LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT
1 It was love at first sight. It's always exciting to hear those
words. But do people really believe in love at first sight? We asked 40 Americans this question_18 men and 22 women. Thirteen people (32%) said they believed in love at first sight; 27 people (68%) said
5 they did not.
Next, we wanted to find out who believed in love at first sight and who did not. We were surprised to find that both younger and older people believed they could fall in love in a few short seconds. We also learned that people from many different
10 professions had love-at-first- sight experiences. These people included a scientist, an artist, a dancer, and a computer programmer.
What was the most interesting thing we learned in our study? More men believe in love at first sight than women: 44 % of the men believed in this kind of love, while only 27% of the women
15 did. Here is what some of the men and women in our survey said about love at first sight.
Name: John
Occupation: Artist
Age: 30
20 "Yes, I believe in love at first sight. It happened to me. I was at a party several years ago when I saw Luisa. I knew she was the one for me when her eyes flashed back at me. It was like they looked into my heart, read my life story, and said, "I like what I see, and want to be with you." That night at the party, I went over to Luisa
25 and asked her to dance. She said, "of course, I was waiting for you to ask." That was three years ago, and we are still together."
her eyes flashed back at me : she looked at my eyes with a lot of emotion
Name: Mark
Occupation: Salesman
Age: 35
30 "I did not use to believe in love at first sight, but now I do. About four years ago, I was giving a sales presentation when this amazing woman walked into the room. We made eye contact and my heart started beating faster. After my presentation, I introduced myself, and she and I went out for dinner next night. We talked and talked,
35 and by the end of the evening, I was truly in love with her. That feeling of love at first sight was like nothing else. In just a few seconds, I was filled with intense energy and passion. Anne and I got married a year later.
Name: Emily
40 Occupation: College student
Age: 23
"No, I don't believe in love at first sight. Love comes later in a relationship. When I met my boyfriend, I felt something tingly. I guess you could call it puppy love, but it wasn't true love. It took
45 about a year for true love to develop between us."
amazing: fantastic
made eye contact : looked into each other's eyes
heart started beating faster : heart began to move very quickly
intense : very strong
felt something tingly : had feelings of excitement
puppy love : early feeling of love that are not serious
Name: Carol
Occupation: Writer
Age: 37
"Do I believe in love at first sight? No, not really. Love is based on
50 trust and shared experiences and values. Love takes time to develop. You fall in love slowly by talking to a special person, writing him love letters, fighting, making up. The key to love is staying excited about the other person, month after month, year after year."
Name: Sarah
55 Occupation: High school senior
Age: 18
"I don't think love at first sight happens very often, but of course it happens sometimes. It makes me happy to think that it might happen to me. If I didn't believe love at first sight was possible, it would be really depressing."
shared experiences and values: things that two people do together and ideas they agree on
making up: apologizing to each other after an agreement