HEAVEN OF DREAMS

It was so clean, and so clear that you could see more than 2 meters of your front, and the sea's bottom and whatever on its surface, the stones and sands and everything! It was like a great glass on the earth and you could slide on. Wonderful, it was! It was warm and we, Paliz Ban and I, was swimming and playing in the warm crystal water, it was sunset and the sun was sitting in the bloody and dark blue sky in the horizons, so beautiful and so pretty that he confessed had never seen such a scene before! We took some photos and then made a big fire and barbecued on it some meat like Turkish people. It was very delicious and surprising! Here nothing was there! Bare shore, in front of you, bare sea and colorful sky that in horizons attached so into sea that you could not distinguish between! Not any tree, nor any grass and not even any people, just 3 or 4 native boys and a family over there to spend their Friday afternoon!  

 

"shut up!", "but I wanna explain…", "shut up, you see, shut up!", these are some words of Golbabaie when he heard we got divorced! I do not know what happened! He called me, with the thought that I was a girl, a girlfriend of his son, but I introduced myself and he perceived me! And then he said "I am in Zanjan, but you were not coming with Zeinab to see me, she came with her brother." I asked "what did she tell you so?" he said "just said Yaser is not here for 2 days, in he will come, what happened?!" and I told him the news, getting too angry and too furious that when he spoke with me, all my hairs on my head and even skin were upright!

"What the hell are you doing there?" he shouted at me! I said "I want to forget Zeinab and find out myself and change my behavior to be a man, a great amn on whom everybody can trust and relay!" he shouted angrily : in Bandar Lengeh? Hell on you! Why did not come Astara and I could have given you a gun you could have gone hunting some wild pigs and then released! You wanna forget whom? Zeinab? You can't! You, yourself, say "I want to forget Zeinab!" but you still think about her to forget her! And you can not! You see, you can not!" I said" I know, but what can I do?" he asked " do you love her or not?" I answered "yes, and even just because I loved her I undertook this issue and without anybody's attention or idea we got divorced!" he shouted "shut up, or I will kill you and Zeinab! so answer is "YES", ok, what was the problem?" I said " she does not love me or even like me!" he again shouted so furiously that I swallowed the reminding of my words!" what do you want? You went there so that she courtesies you? What we, men, have that we expect women and girls must love us or even like us because of that?!!! What do we have? Ha?" I said no thing! He does not understand or I do not! What? She does not have to love me? Without love is it possible to live and have a happy life? "Tomorrow you come back Zanjan, ok? Do you understand?" I told "but I have here some classed and I must finish them then come back!" he shouted "shut up stupid boy! I should talk to whom now? To release you from there? You did a lot of mistakes and ruined many things! Come back here, to find out yourself here!"  at this time his cell phone rang and it was she, Zeinab, I could hear her because he used speaker. She asked "are you alone? Who are you talking to? He shouted "I am alone, this is Yaser, you understand???!!!! He is in Kong!" and cut off .Then he restated three storied I had already known:

 

a clergyman in Britain boasted "I wanna change the world…" when he was young! After some years, he found out it was so difficult and beyond his abilities, then he said "I wanna change my country", again after some years he found that was too hard, too, he said "I wanna change my family" and after so long time, it was too difficult and too hard that he could not do any thing! He was 80 and laid on his death bad he said regretful "I wish I would have changed myself since the first…!"

 

man was walking on the beach and he saw there are three foot prints on the sand, and he said "yes, this is mine and the other definitely belongs to My God, and then some times later, in his hard-up time and difficulties he perceived that just there is only one foot print, he asked "my God, when I have problems and in my hard-up where were you? Where are you? Leaving me alone?" God answered "those feet prints are mine, not yours! In that hard-up time I embarrassed you and carried you on my back!"

 

Buda got married with his wife, after the first night of making love, he left her to find a better world, to find the knowledge and thought. He went a lot of placed, in Tebbat, in China, in India, and other places. When he returned to his hometown he was 80 years old, and he saw his son, from his first making love at the first night of marriage. His wife told him "was not it possible to be with us, and with us could you find the world and knowledge? Beside of your family, your son?" and he knew that she was right and the knowledge was beside of his family and his wife!

 

And another story of me:

The man learned a lot of languages and traveled a lot of places to find the better place and life, after so long time, he missed his land and hometown, came back there and saw he lost his own language and there, it was too strange for him!

نوشته شده توسط Yaser Mousavi در 8:45 AM |  لینک ثابت   •