Fri 25 Jan 2008
You know… in your loneliest moments of your life, when a grief fill up your heart, a sorrow of some memories, the effects of some unfaithful acts recently people done for you, or a condition of a friend in his or her hard up state on your heart and soul… suddenly an old friend, who has been absent for years and years, a great one, from every aspect of personality, ethical, behavior, thought and heart calls you or sends you a sms, to show you that still in this cruel world there is some kindness, happiness, friendship and LOVE that are beyond any reach of evil, makes you feel great and encouraged to challenge and fight against evil to evoke this LOVE and friendship among all!
This happened to me last night! Mrs. Sarshar, a friend of mine, while she was much greater than me in English and translation, who is B.A in English literature, attended in my translation classes, patiently listened to me, humbly and too friendly that never have I experienced! She is 10 years older than me, but she looks 10 years younger! She is, not exaggeratingly, the prettiest, the most beautiful woman I have ever seen! Not just her beauty, but her unique personality, thoughts and behaviors attract anybody, and if anybody sees her and not falls in love with her, he or she in abnormal and has problems! I learnt a lot of things of her and Mrs. Dehnaie, a chemist, who is another nice and great woman, with unique behaviors and thoughts influenced my life, an open-minded woman, too humble, too kind and very knowledgeable and philosophical person and a friend of Mrs. Sarshar. I loved that class, and I loved those people and even now I love them all, Narcissi was one of them, of course!
She did not know about the separation, she got too sorry when heard the news! She wanted to see me, and after getting better of catching cold, we will meet each other, I am counting the moments to see her! Thank you Mrs. Sarshar for every kindness you have for me!
Yesterday Sahar called me to see me, after 2 days of that unfaithful act of Shadmanesh, before that I called Lisa to hear her idea about the decision I made about establishment of an institute to begin our work there, Sahar has her own business, me mine, and my friend his. I asked about her capacities to run the institute and about her family, because she is too emotional and this affects her work and job, a emotional person can not make decision in hard-up times and can not be a good manager, this is the fact! She told “those feelings are always with her, unfortunately and her family is not agreeing with her working and independence! But let me think more and inform you!”
I met her in Apadana, she got emotional and cried again! I said “take it easy, my friend! Nothing important happened! This is the reality! Because you are encountering these kinds of affairs for the first time, you have got so impressed! The more you contact with the world, the more you face these issues, but the important thing is that you must control your feelings and keep cool, do not allow the stress paralyze your mind, make the decisions and do them! Affairs in life are like plays in chess! With beginning every act and event, you begin a new play. You must pay attention to your movements and rivals`. If you distract you attention by your feelings, you will lose your pieces, your movement and even may be check mate! Game over!” She told “what can I do? What should I do? My family why did this for me, why did Shadmanesh do it? Why did Samad do it? I want get back to him!” I told “no! do not do that! at least not now! Remember, always behave with people as the same as the way they behave towards you! He deceived you, he acted with you unfaithfully and did not respect you and your rights, you should not respect him, anymore! Make him disturbed! Make him understand that for any action there is a reaction! He must expect his acts consequences! This is the worst thing we have expected, isn`t it? So, you said you have a place to go there, didn`t you?” she answered “yes, Eshragh institute, Mr. Imami, does he give me a class?” I told “there is no need to wait for him to give you a class! You take your students, all of them, there! It is enough that they just be informed that you move there, they will follow you if you have done your best in your classes!” she said “I did.” I told “go to Mr. Imami and suggest him that you wanna take your classes there, it is better to offer your students to him, instead let them under the control of Shadmanesh. There is a rule : “whatever is not mine, I do not let others keep”, this is the rule of people like Shadmanesh, but you must act them as they act with you!”
she got happy and the beams of hope appeared in her dark face, she smiled and said “I will do it, yes, I will disturb him, even the management license he has and it is needed for every institute is for my friend, I will ask her to get it back, without it, he can not do any thing!” I said “yes, now, it is your turn to move your piece on the field of chess and make him not only check, but also pinned (achmase)!”
She left me, and this morning she called “I got all the numbers, but he insists on my coming back! What should I do?” I said “wait, let him suffer and be punished, then we will think about it! Do not do any thing especial; let him to move his own movement! He has no other choice, he must knock out, lose his King or lose his Queen!”
She loves her job, and to be independent! She loves to do a productive thing! Not like others waste her time and opportunities, and I am sure she will success in the very near future! I encouraged her to continue her studying in Payame-noor university which its enrolment is due to next month! She said “my family is opposing to do that”, I said “do not worry, I will speak with your father, and Lisa will speak with your mother, to get their approval.”
Wed 23 Jan 2008
I have understood completely that our world is composed of two groups of people: good people and evil people, but good people are just 1 percent and evil ones are 99! And moreover, these evil people always deceive good people, exploit them, and on the other hand, good ones are too kind, too cooperative. Good people are active and love others simply, on the other hand, evil people want to own others and restrict them, not even liking them but posses them!
Yesterday, Sahar called me to go to her institute to talk to me, and asked me to be her witness in the contract signature. I wanted to go there, myself, because I wanted to give Lisa`s birthday present to her to handle to Lisa. I could not mange to see her, while we were sitting in a restaurant or coffee shop face to face, looking at her beautiful eyes and pretty smile on her lips, offering the gift to her, to thank all her kindness and to show my love! But she was too busy to manage to do that, so she said me” we can see each other in the institute, but after almost 10 days, after her university finishes.” I got happy, but felt little sad, but took it easy, and said myself “come on boy! She accepts your gift, that is great! Godwillings, we will meet each other very very soon, sooner than what you expect! Then I got so happy that no one can think of! Thank you Lisa, thank you my dear…
It was due to 5 pm that I must have been there to witness, but at 4, she called me crying, and depressed “Mr. Mousavi… do not come here, every thing cancelled!” I asked why, she told that he had already signed a contract with his friend, and she had nothing under her control!” I said her not worry, and let it happen, maybe it was better, but she got so depressed and yield more that I could not clam her! I expected Shadmanesh would do it some day, but not this soon! Because of that I told her “think of the worst thing will happen to you, do you have any other place to go, and take your students when it happens?” she told “yes, “, then I said that she must think of getting a loan, and getting her own license for establishing an institute, she agreed, but after this happening, she got so emotional and sad that I barely believe she could mange to control the future institute! Of course I must consider that she is too young and has no or a little experience in these kinds of affairs, and in dealing with people around her. This five month working for others, will be a great experience for her that never trust in her closest ones 100 percent, because every body, even your daddy, brother or even mommy, not even your friends and workmates, will consider their own interests when financial issues addresses! Be sure about what I told, it is natural and the law of the nature!
I want to help her to restart her attempts and job, but this time firmly and every thing under her control! I wish I would have some money, to rent a place and buy some facilities and begin the work from tomorrow, but due to my family issues I have had, I lost all my savings, and now I have almost nothing! It is ridiculous! Whenever you need money, there is no money! Whenever there is money, you have not nay motivation to do something! I asked two of my friends to borrow me some money to start the institute, but they have some problems, too! I am going to gat a load after the Eve, but I do not know if that time, it would be suitable or not! Lisa says “whatever God wants will happen and I ask him do whatever is good for her!” I do, too. We must wait but the important thing is that we will definitely start the job in very near future! He will be sorry, so sorry to lose Sahar and Lisa.
Mr. Moghanlou saw me yesterday, and asked “can you mange to have another Ash festival within next fortnight?” I said “yes, why not!” then he spoke about 2 years ago, when we had a festival, just because I promised to my students, Lisa and her classmates, to cook Ash, and I did it one Friday, almost more than 3o people came, students, teachers, Mr. Moghanlou and his ex-wife and her family! Wonderful it was! Not the cooking, of course, but the memory! I do not know the guys participated what felt about, but for me and Mr. Moghanlou it was great! Wasn`t it Lisa?
