HEAVEN OF DREAMS

The teller of the radio once said “it is better to those who want to write as an author to read the works and masterpieces of the great authors of the world… it makes somehow some beneficial for them all in their professional works and lives… such as Hugo’s masterpiece, INDIGENTS, Tolstoy’s WAR and PIEACE, Dickens’s Oliver Twist, THE GREAT AMBITIONS, Sent Du Egzo Perry’s THE LITTLE PRINCE, Chekhov’s METAMORPHOSIS, or Hedayat`s BOUFE KOUR, etc” I have already read all of them and besides much more in western literature and old Greece stories of gods and … when I was not more than 7 or 8 years old I read most of them. and now when I can find an English or original version of those masterpieces, with reading in original one first those so nice memories appear in my mind about especially when I could not read by my self and my daddy read it slowly to let me perceive what he read, or my grand mother who stated those old stories from her kind heart whenever I went to their house and stayed over with her. It was great… and now I really enjoy reading them and like my friends have the same feeling at their hearts when they read these works again and especially in original form.

I have found “THE LITTLE PRINCE” in English and in Persian with the great translation of Ahmad Shamlou, one the other masterpieces he has created! And whenever I have read the story at the end I felt tragic and my eyes filled with tear unconsciously of course, even with the reading of English version, how great Du Sent Egzo Perry wrote it! And finally he himself left and joined his little prince… I am sure on little prince`s planet there is enough room for him, too! Whenever I look at stars… never have I missed the memory of him and the little prince, especially that fantastic cartoon (which was played by TV when we were children… remember?!!!) and that very pretty little sweet hearted boy who traveled all around the planet in his trying t help people struggled to understand our complex world of us, ADULTS, who as he says “do not care any more just numbers and statistics!”.

He left his little planet just because of his little proud and selfish ROSE, who always insulted him and had not cared about his feelings . the flower always acted in a way that made him worried and never showed him any affections or kindness or LOVE, and she was so confident and so sure about his LOVE towards herself that acted in that proud and selfish way… but he got so sad and left her to see the world and know much better about it, to see who is there, and to discover some thing new to please her… but on Earth he found out that there were so many flowers as her species and she was not unique at all just for him… but when he got familiar with a fox and then made friendship with it, it advised him that “there are some thins in the world that you can not see them by your eyes, but just by your heart you can feel them!” and other thing that “ when you get familiar with some thing like me or your flower, and tame it then there will be some kind of relation that makes it unique for you and differ form other kinds of the same! It is completely different form others… it is just for you… because you have tried hard and struggled and spent your time to make it tame! And you are responsible about it… about your flower!”

Isn`t this remind you some resemblances with Palo’s words? Or with Forum’s, which I have already put them here? (you can go archive and download the writings of December (AZAR and DAY) how strangely surprising that Du Sent Egzo Perry had already reached at the same concept of a modern writer and a modern psychologist! You can download the Persian version of “the little prince” translated by Shamlou, a great another masterpiece, and its English version from the following likes. I strongly recommend that study both of them… it is really good for your English too, by comparative analyses of both texts.

http://www.4shared.com/file/38273855/2c94876/The_little_prince.html

http://www.4shared.com/file/38273529/4ce601c9/_____.html

نوشته شده توسط Yaser Mousavi در 2:11 PM | لینک ثابت •

Sun 17 Feb 2008

There is some thing that really has occupied my mind for several months and I do not know what I must do that is good for me and my future and my life. I do not know exactly what Lisa thinks about me or what feelings she has about me and what her idea is about my love! She definitely knows better than any body else that what I feel about her and what I want but has not yet mentioned any thing that shows her acceptance or rejection! Some times, when I sent her smses she does not respond any more, when I put her off messages she does not answer, even not answering to my emails or my invitations for chatting! I miss her, I love her and I want to be and talk with her all the time, but how I can do this when I am not sure about her feelings and I do not want again to be in a condition of one side love which is too painful and which is too unbearable! I even came back here just because of Lisa, but she has not shown any thing especial about her feelings and ideas! I know my condition is especial mostly because of my past and my family and even my nowadays conditions, financially and psychological, but if I knew about her feelings towards me, and she loves me, just to make me sure that I can count on her I will get 100 times energies and mood that can build our future and life the greater and sooner, and on the other hand, if she does not love me or does not accept my love, I can make some decisions and do something, which I had had in my mind, to leave here for ever, to go on my own way, maybe going abroad, maybe Dubai or maybe Australia! If she says me “NO” I will do it definitely! Here I have nothing to lose…

My sister has wanted to talk with her since my coming back, but I did not agree, since she had exams and she must have studied, and I did not want to disturb her and spoil her studying! I never want some body especially who I love is in trouble just because of me and my selfishness! I wanted to talk with her by myself, but I do not know why I have not enough encourage in myself to face her and speak with her, maybe feeling shy, maybe feeling fear… I do not know! But still I can not continue in this way… so I thought it is better my sister speaks with her and knows her ideas… however Ms. Sarshar is opposing and says “the live person does not need any representative, you must first talk with her by yourself and when you get agreed then let the families involve! Mr. Palizban also believes the same. But I do not know why I cant! I think this would be better… my sister is a girl and can understand her better and of course in this case she feels much more comfortable than when I speak with her face to face! If she accepts the idea and allows, I will speak with her face to face, but not it is better exactly now it finishes, as soon as possible, because you do not understand a one side love how painful and suffering is!

The sister and her friend want to see her a day after tomorrow, I mean Tuesday, but before that please my friends tell me your ideas and help me! Is there any other better way for me to get sure of her love?!!! What if she sent me a private sms or an off massage or even an email and talk about her feelings and let me know exactly!

You know… I have guided some friends of mine about these kinds of affairs, all of them some how have got succeed, but I wonder about myself I can not do that! I must not be emotional and let face the reality not dreams and fancies! Rahmat listened to me and waited for a while and finally could make the girl consent, she loves him, too, the only problem is her mother who is opposing about his job. I suggested some solutions for him and he is working on them. Farzad could manage the life, too! The girl loves him, and even her mother, and his mother also talked with the girl to go their home for proposal, the only problem is Farzad himself that wants to test the girl and her love towards him! I suggested some thing and he accepted apparently! Sahar could mange her love and now she says that it gets much better than before, he gradually has begun loving her, missing her, respecting her feelings… I got so happy when I heard this news! Mrs. Hasani also gets better and even she went to see her husband in Kish island two weeks ago, they get along much better now! Sabrina still loves her ex-boyfriend who left her and went abroad, and she can not forget her, and I promised her to speak with him to know what exactly he wants and what we can do to make their mutual life better and better and help her not suffer of this distance! I hope that I can do something, every thing God wants that will happen, won` it?

What can I do for myself, though?!!! Tell me my friends … which one of above suggestions and ideas is better and is it good for me to face LISA and talk with her personally, or let the sister do that to see what will happen?!!!

BAD NEWS IS MUCH BETTER THAN HAVING NO NEWS, ISN`T IT?!!!!!

نوشته شده توسط Yaser Mousavi در 3:36 PM | لینک ثابت •

Sat 16 Feb 2008

After a few months, to be in your home town is pleasing! The weather is great! I love this weather, cold one, and I feel comfort. But again here, my family, especially my daddy began to blame me and asks a lot of relevant and irrelevant questions, those make me annoyed and nothing I can do! I want to be independent and I want to make decisions about my own affairs and life myself, they do not want to accept me as a man, a full grown man. I insist on my independence and get it. He blames me that why did you go South? Why did you go Zabol and why did you go Pakistan? We have brought up you not to lose you! Why did not you listen to me, and whatever I tell you?” I want to go Zabol to teach there, but he is opposing me and says “do not go there, stay here. And continue your education, how much you can gain is better than a lot of money you can make there.” My heart’s words are the same! I mean I agree with him, but still I worry and may I stand here?

By the way, mommy missed me so much, I missed her, too. She wants to know more about Lisa, she likes to hear more about her, she asks me to introduce them together, and she says” I am depressed of God! Why did He allow you, my dear son, to suffer and pain? Why has not He listened to my prayers? But now you made me happy and I think He accepts my prayers, you deserve a very treat wife, and I feel from bottom of my heart that Lisa as you speak about her, and t her, is suitable for you!”. She was so happy that I said “come on mommy, she may not love me, or accept my love, or…”. She got unhappy and told seriously “do not speak in that way! Every thing God wants that will happen! God willing she will accept, do not worry!” I smiled and said “I hope so!”. (in my mind I said “how simple woman you are, how kind hearted and how sweet soul, I love you mommy, I love you so much!) She got happy and laughed, very cheerful that I always love to watch!

“what? Daddy had an accident?” it was my uncle called me an hour and a half ago. I got too worried and annoyed; I went immediately to Honarestan Square, there a public transport bus crashed daddy’s car at 8:20, he was ok, but the car completely crashed and almost nothing remained! I wonder how fast this city public bus was driving that could not control itself and crashed the car from behind! More surprisingly the police officer, a very young one, came and inspected and said that daddy was guilty, whereas he had stopped to turn, then the bus crashed it from behind! He did not listen to our words, tomorrow I will go to court to clam to investigate it again this time by another experienced officer. So I have a busy day tomorrow! Thanks God! Thank you for your blessings again and again and your pity ness towards us, thank you!

Human perceives universe and this emotional and mental understanding is by love and wisdom. The wisdom force enables person to penetrate from outside into inside, and with establishing of active relations gasp the nature of his goal. The love force enables him to remove walls and obstacle between himself and others and understands them. Although love and wisdom are two different form of perceiving the world, and although one without the other is not possible, each expresses different forces, emotions and thoughts.

The concept of generative love differs so much from what is called love. “LOVE” is used almost for expressing of every feeling that lacks hate and disgust. The term of love consists every thing from love of ice cream, love of symphony, love of intercourse. When people like somebody they feel they fall in love with her. They call “love” their dependence on others and ownership of others, and in fact they believe that nothing is easier than expressing love and loving others; the problem is just finding desired lover and failure in achieving to happiness of love is because of their bad fortune in not finding the suitable one.

But unlike this idea, “LOVE” is a very especial feeling and although every one has the capacity of loving others, but achieving it is one of the most difficult tasks. The root of original LOVE is in generation, so we can call it generative LOVE. The nature of its different kinds is the same; whether a mother’s love towards her child, or our love towards another human, or love between a couple; love of others and love f own “self” is this kind, too. Several fundamental factors in all forms of generative love are the same; they are: concern, responsibility, respect and understanding. Concern and responsibility mean that love is an activity not a jumpy passion that conquers the person, not even a feeling of excitement that person suffers from.

نوشته شده توسط Yaser Mousavi در 11:42 PM | لینک ثابت •

Sat 16 Feb 2008

I decided to restate some parts of the book I have already translated for some of my freinds to read and study and I hope that they are good and useful.

I am a Jewish! Don`t I have Jewish eyes? Were not my hands, organs, sizes, feelings, affections and emotions Jewish? I am feed by the same dish, I am injured by the same gun, I am suffered by the same dishes? I am cured by the same medicines, I feel cold by the same winter, and I feel warm by the same summer that a Christian does. If you pock me and a Christian a pin, blood does not flow? If you tickle both o us, we won`t laugh? If you force us to have poison, won`t we die? If you do wrong with us, we won`t compensate? If they are all true, so we are just as the same as you!

Shylock, the usurer character in Shekspier `s Venisian Merchant Play.

Once Susia in his prayers with his God said “o! God! I love you so much, but I am not afraid of you enough, let me frighten of you, like your angles that are impressed of your impressing presence!” and God accepted his request, and his impressing name pretended in Susia`s hidden heart, as impressed at angles`. But as a result of this pretences, Susia crawled under a bed like a frightened dog, and an animal fear trembled him in a way that he haltingly supplicated “ O! my God! Let me love you like Susia, again” and God accepted his request this time, too!

Humanistic morality considers human the focus and eminent of all the things, however, this does not mean that the human is the center of universe, it means that he is the root of his value judgments like his other judgments about special features of his own existence, and in fact, human is the scale and criteria of everything and nothing is higher than, and valuable than human existence.

Human feels happiness just in cohesion and relation with his own species, because of the necessity of his nature`s features. Kindness and affection to neighbors is not a phenomenon higher than human characteristics, otherwise, are the components of human nature that shines; love and affection are not tasks that are super forces that are penetrated, they are not tasks that are imposed on him; but they are natural and inherent forces by which human bends himself to the universe and by which he controls the world and gets it under his ownership.

The general concept of irrelativeness versus totalism is in the religious thoughts in which God`s realm is considered total and is distinguished of human`s defected realm, except this total religious field, the totalism is completely meaningless in moral principles and has nowhere in scientific thinking.

Old-testament has an image and embodiment of powerism at the beginning of the discussion of human`s history. Adam and Eve`s sin is not expressed by the terminology of the action itself; eating of forbidden fruit of knowledge tree for goodness and evil is not bad and indecent by itself, in fact, Jewish and Christianity religious both agree that the capacity of distinguishing goodness from badness is a basic virtue; the sin was disobedience; opposing against God`s power, the God that threatened of human to be one of “them”, can distinguish goodness and evil and can step beyond it and with reaching to the tree of life, can get everlasting life (it means a rival to God in the board of universe).

Living is itself an art, and in fact the most important and at the same time the most difficult and the most complex art that human experiences. The aim of it is not doing a special task, but its goal is a life deserving admiration and culturing of natural talent. In the field of art of life, human is both an artist and the product of art, is the sculptor and the marble stone, is the doctor and the patient, too.

The aim of human life is revealing of his forces according to the laws of human nature; so human has no collective characters, while in the core of human qualities is in common with others, always he is a unique individual and a unique personality and differs from every other ones.

Character, morality, talent and tempers of everyone is like fingerprints different form theirs. Every person can improve his humanistic capacities by just expressing his owe self’s characteristics. The task of being alive, and surviving is the same task of being “self|” and reaching to a personality that the potential “self” has.

Goodness in the principle of humanistic is life confirmation and the expression of humanistic forces, and virtue means the feeling of responsibility for existence, for the “self” the devil and badness makes humanistic forces paralysis; evil and badness mean irresponsibility towards yourself.

Aristotle says “ the norm of virtue (perfectness) is activity” he means the experience of tasks and the capacities of that are especial for human. Happiness that is human goal is the product of activity and being been used; not inactivity nor silence of thinking. He says “(gives an example of Olympic games) the prize will not be given to the most good-shaped and the strongest one, otherwise, it is for the who enters the competition field ( because victorious one raise among competitors,), so everyone does any action is victorious, the right winner of life`s goodness and geniuses.

Whether I am a human weather I share with my other species, weather I see, hear, eat and drink, all creatures have, but “I” belongs to “me” and “I” is “mine” only, not others, or angles or even the God- but I am just with my creator, the God.

Ekhart

The wise man always thinks of life not death.

Character: the individual features of a special person;

Different kinds of characters:

1. Receptor Orientation

2. Exploitive Orientation

3. Marketing Orientation

4. Productive Orientation

Receptor Orientation: in this orientation person feels that the source of all goodness is in outside world, and believes that the only way of providing his requests- weather material or affection, love and knowledge - is from outside sources. In this orientation love exclusively means to be loved by some one, not to love someone; these people confuse in their beloved one selection and they can not distinguish him or her because for them to be loved and affected by someone is such an irresistible experience that love everyone who expresses affection and love towards them, or they think so; they are so sensitive towards unkindness and neglecting of their beloved one, the thought orientation of these people is alike, too. If they are intelligent and clever, they are the best listeners, since their orientation is getting of ideas not involving or creating of them. If they are leaved by themselves, they will become ineffective and paralysis. They always look for someone that gives them necessary information. If they are religious, again their relationships with others is the same, they always look for a miracle and a person who does that. These people are so faithful, but in the deepness of this gratitude towards someone who feed them, there is also the fear of losing her, too. Saying “NO” for them is very difficult and they can easily stick between faithfulness and promise. Since they can not say “NO” so they like saying “YES” to everyone and every thing, therefore, their natural capacity paralysis and in creatively relay on others.

Here in Zabol, every thing is really different from that we have had in our minds, every every thing! People , their behaviors and even the environment! There were a lot of rumors about the savageness and barbarian acts these people have and about their hostilities with us, arresting, kidnapping or even killing us! But here when we arrived, a man with his car drove us to city center and then for more than an hour showed us the bazaar and shops and helped us to find the electronic devices, laptops, MP3 s and even he found us a hostel to stay. When we wanted to give him some money as respecting his kindness he friendly did not accept it! We really got surprised! These people against our prejudice, are Shie and different from Baluch people of Zahedan, they are Sonnei. Whoever heard we were going there and we are here, were shocked and the first question was “why are you going there? Do you want kill yourselves?” even some people from Zahedan told us that there, in their Bazaars they sell guns and every kinds of weapons, they have always gun with themselves and do not laugh or joke there, because they are Sonni and very strict about these kinds of acts and you may get them angry and maybe they wanna harm you!

To be frank, all of these rumors affected us and in our hearts` deepest corners, we felt scared, especially when we were passing those high valleys and hot, waterless deserts! O boy! What is Sahara desert in Africa or Nevada desert in America?! Here this desert is one hundred times much dryer and hotter than them and much more lifeless than every other deserts of the world! Here there has an area, Kallate, which is the hottest area of the world, 55 degrees of centigrade! Wonderful! As much as eyes can see, nothing is there, unless sand, dry soul, hot earth and boiled weather! But remember, when you want to come here, do not take any bus, and if you take, do not take the road of Kerman, Bam and Zahedan! Ok?! Of course here is not where the family, especially girls and women can stand! Its better come here alone and single!

Zabol, Rostam`s ancient city, there called now “Shahre Soukhteh” means the burnt city, is located in its 15^th kilometers. Unfortunately we could not go there, because architectures were carving and discovering antiques. The Bazaar is smaller than ours in Zanjan but much bigger than Lengeh and even Baneh in kordestan. It is like other Iranian traditional Bazaars and they sell every thing from textures ad clouds to drugs and spices, from animals to birds and pigens. There are Afghan people, mostly coming to purchase.

We decided to go Afghanistan, because we heard that there is a big market for electronic devices. But they said there is dangerous especially for us, Iranians because Americans arrest us if they knew we are Iranians. Afghan people catch us and deliver us to Americans and get prizes! We did not go and so we went Pakistan. We went there illegally, wearing Baluch cloths and paid 30000 tomans to pass us across from the boarders. Unfortunately, about two months ago, it was just 2ooo tomans! We went to “Shahre No”, the new city away from boarders for 5 minutes. Electronic devices were ok, but you can not bring them back to Iran, so we did not buy anything, and came back Miejaveh, there the big market of scraped irons and second hand machine, then we came back Zabol, and bought some Laptops and Mp3s and digital cameras.

Some times I feel lonely too extremely that just by contacting with a friend I feel better, if that friend is someone I feel love towards her, Lisa, I feel great and feel that still I am useful and there is some one back that understands me and at least likes me, not love! But I have not known why she has not reply to my greetings and smses, suddenly three nights ago, after I sent her a beautiful sentence of my own translations, she replied “thank you for your very beautiful sentences that send to me, but I fee inconvenience and angry at you! But the passing of time helped me to fell better, why did you do that? You played a scenario? Do you know what feelings I have had since that time? I felt guilty, I felt sad and I felt conscience striking! And in fact it was just a play of you! I do not know what role you have in it and to what extent it was!” I shocked, I said “I do not have any control on it, nor did I want that!”. In spite of all her anger towards me, she respectedly and kindly said good night. I felt guilty and so regretful that why I accepted Narcissi’s idea, that I am accused of a non-done action of mine! I decided to sent her an email and explain her the whole story, and then let he make her mind. We can not do anything about the feelings or ideas other people have about us! We do not have any control. I always try hard to leave beautiful memories in people`s minds and hearts, good and pretty lines of pure emotions and feelings, and I think most the time I have been succeed, unfortunately when I want to be a little more familiar with them, to see and respect my needs and emotions of mine, they feel angry and get awy of me! Lisa told me “I like you and respect you as my teacher!” but our teacher-student relation has already finished! I do not like to be her teacher! I hate to be teacher and just be others ladder to go up and clime over my shoulders and then forget me, forget whatever I did for them, forget my love and affections towards them, just because it was my duty and responsibility! No! my dear no! it finished a year and a half ago! Now we are each other`s friends and I love you! This is the fact! I love you from the bottom of my heart! And if every thing goes well and nice I am going to propose you, and if you accept… why people act in a disappointing way when they see your heart and they understand whatever reality is in your heart?!!!! I expected more of Lisa, especially her prejudice about me! I sent her an email yesterday and asked her to read it and then judge about me! I will not contact with her until she, herself, contact with me. If she does not, I won`t! I called Mrs. Rezaie to speak with her about Lisa`s misunderstanding and prejudice. I told her about my feelings towards her, she listened and suggested that “it`s better to continue your educations and after 5 years think about such issue!” how cruel she is! She does not understand me! She says “ I am scared you depend on her, you replace her in your heart with Zienab, and again you repeat your mistake! “ I agreed with her, and promised her until two years I will not say such a thing and will not express my feelings towards her, and I will make my life materially and my mind mentally and my behavior so independent and reliable that she can depend on me and she can trust on me as her man, as her love and husband! She accepted. I must do my best to continue my education and find a good work and make good money to bring her a happy and relaxed life for ever! I do not boast, you may think, otherwise, I know myself and I know my abilities and I am sure I can do it with my determination and God`s kindness!

Mrs. Hasani, our secretary in Zabansara, called me, and greet me, she was so unhappy and sad and cried hard when she heard the news of my divorcing! I shocked! Why? She said “I have a same problem!” I shocked more! She said “he left me and went Kish to work there, he did not take me, he says “here is not good for you” maybe he does not love me any more and maybe I am a disturbant for him! I do not want to impose him myself!” I said “come on, take it easy! You have lived with each other more than 5 years! You must bear it and solve it! He may need sometime to be alone, may be he wants to improve your lives, maybe a lot of things! Just be patient and think more about it! Do not be so strict towards him! Understand him . ok? I will come back and speak with you, but do not do anything especial with that, ok?” she said “ok”. I wonder why you women and girls are so strict and are so emotional with our husbands and lovers! Take it easy ok? I need some one to talk to me, to help me, but I must help her too! I do not know what if Lisa was not with me during that hard-up days! Not to listen to me and be sympathetic with me! To help me, to listen me whenever I needed her, midnight, noon, … thank you my dear friend! I really appreciate your kindness and never do I forget it, and YOU! I really and from my bottom of my heart, I love you, and I am faithfully proud of you and to be one of your candidates! Thank you my dearest one! Thank you!

نوشته شده توسط Yaser Mousavi در 11:39 PM | لینک ثابت •

Sat 16 Feb 2008

Their emotion being causes them to understand the past as golden memories and are envious about past experiences and feelings. Although they know every thing but their minds are completely empty of any generative thought. The feature of this trend is scrupulous in order and arrangement. Compulsory cleanness and extensive punctuality are other signs of controlling outside world. Continuously saying “NO” is the most unconscious defense against any invade into their inner castle. They believe death and destruction are more reliable than life and growing.

Creativity is a miracle that they hear but they do not believe it; their highest value is arrangement and security and relationship with others is dangerous. Thay are suspicious and their judgement is outlined in this sentence “my belongings are mine, yours are yours.”

Positive aspects

Active

Economical

Precise

Quiet

Patient

Caution

Stable

Rigid

Calm under pressure

Neat

Arranged

Faithful

Negative aspects

Lack of imagination power

Stingy

Suspicious

Cold

Faint

Worried

Tough, stubborn

Lazy

Faint

Insists on reading what is written

Scrupulous

Monopoly (about related people)

in nowadays society that is the main base of the extension of this orientation in today`s human. The marketing concept of value with highlighting of exchange value and not of consumption value consists people and especially individual himself, too. And a phenomenon called “the market of personalities” happens. The principle of assigning value in the market is the same for the personality and the other goods; in one the personalities are offered to sell and in the other goods.

The success depends mostly on “how a person sells himself in the market and what kind of parcel he is”: pleasant and cheerful? Reasonable? Aggressive? Trustful or ambitious? Fact is that for getting success, having skill and needed requirements for doing a task are not enough, otherwise, they must overtake in the field of competition and go far beyond them. Human does not worry about his life and welfare, but he is interested in his salability. He must be fashionable in the market of personalities, and due to this fact, he must know what kind of personality ahs more fans and requestors. Since nowadays` human is both goods and seller, his respect depends on the condition that is beyond his controls. If he is successful, he is worthy and valuable, otherwise, unworthy. The puber and generative man says “my acts and deeds are my identification”, but marketing person says “I am what you want”.

The way of their thinking and feeling is also determined by marketing orientation. Thought and thinking are ways to get things faster, and employing them successfully. This human is alone, and his loneliness that is rooted in marketing orientation is far away that by personal and individual love can be cured.

Positive aspects

Determined

Able to change

Youngish

Provident

Open-minded

Sociable

Believed in experiment and experience

Effective

Curious and precise

Clever

Funny

Generous

Negative aspects

Opportunitist

Unstable

Childish

Without future or past

Non-principled and lack of values

Unable to stand loneliness

Without any goal

Extensive active

Lack of presence of mind

Fan of intelectism

Fool

Consumption

pregnancy and ends by the death. Whatever is flowing between these two poles is the trend of giving birth of potential adjectives, and entering them into the life. While the physical growth is proceeding by itself, if the required conditions meet, unlikely the trend of giving birth is the level of thought is not doable by itself and automatic. But it requires the generative activities for giving life to potential emotional and mental features of human, and giving birth of person`s “SELF”.

One of human`s tragedies is that his growth of “SELF” never completes, even within the best conditions, just some parts of his potential forces are revealed. Human always dies before his birth gets completed!

From Aristotle’s point of view, a good human is who that with his activities, by his own leadership motivates humanistic potential characteristics.

Goteh believed that the only respect to human`s wanting is generative activity that is equal to goodness.

In the poem of “Prologue in Heaven” God says “it is not the mistake and error but it is the lack of activity that spoils human and makes him ineffective.

One of paradoxes of human`s existence is that he must look for familiarity and at the same time look for independence; at the same time look for unity and at the same time look for preserving his especial characteristics.

نوشته شده توسط Yaser Mousavi در 2:36 PM | لینک ثابت •

Sat 16 Feb 2008

After almost 5 years, reaching to the first point where you began your revolutionary, a failed one, is becoming ridiculous, isn`t it? Trying hard to find your independence, to know and understand the world around better, to love, to be loved and to make your life, your future and your family, all were ineffective and now you are still at the beginning point of your 5-yaer-old life! I wonder should I be regretful? Should I be sorry and sad or should I be glad that still life is flowing and whatever I did was just an experience to make my future life better and much more effective?! I am definitely agreeing the last one, because it is reasonable. I have known a lot of things since the story began; now my mind is full of good and bad experiences, memories and deeds I did, people around me did, my family, my friends, now I can see the deepest corners of people`s minds and personalities, I can influence whoever I see and talks to me! I can do a lot of things from the position of strength, not weakness; I am able to make my life, which I have already started, and of course, now I feel in my inside that I am able to support somebody completely in my life, this energy and knowledge that filled up my soul worthies that 5-year-old life!

Today is my birthday, I got 26! This year is the only year that no one congratulated it, no one got any gift or even no one sent any message! Last night I was happy and because of that I sent all my friends some good smses, especially for Lisa, surprisingly none of them responded! I remember last year, this night, full of enjoyment and happiness, active and great that you can not even imagine that, a lot of people around me, those who I loved and liked so much, but this year none of them presented! If it was in my previous condition and my already mood and morality, I would definitely got depressed and so sad that for maybe two weeks I would get a corner and isolate there speaking with no one! But now I feel completely relaxed and none of those bad feelings emerged! I have got surprised about myself, but it is the fact and gradually and gradually I can control my feelings with my wisdom! A wonderful conclusion: “LIFE is not that idealist one we always have imaged in our minds, otherwise it completely differs from our imaginations, the reality is not acceptable at all with our pre-imagined ideas, but the art of living is that we must compound ourselves with reality and adjust with that, just try to be happy!”

I am telling you a story. Let’s think about it for a moment!

There was a very big and excellent party in a Lord`s palace, a lot of gusts came and they were gambling, drinking, dancing, …. a young man, in his twenties, was there, got so surprised about Lord`s properties and wealth that in his mind imagined “what if I were instead of him, the Lord of all these properties, pretty girls, a lot of servants and wealth!”

Suddenly, he found himself in the company of Lord and his gusts, they all were happy and yelling a song, and gambling! Suddenly, Lord made an strange challenging suggestion with his loud , mannish voice “I do not think one of you can even stand an hour alone in a room, without the company of these girls, interesting people and everything around!” he laughed so load and ridiculously that every one in the party noticed it! One of the gusts said “why not? I can do it!” Lord looked at him and then said “I know you can do it, but what if it will be for 5 years?” that man got quiet, and Lord had a victorious look at present people! One said “so what will be the prize of that time spending in that empty room away of all pleasures and enjoyments?” Lord proudly said “one of my properties, the best one!” 3 of people got candidate and other people around began to bet over them, that who could win the contest! The young ambitious man exclaimed “what will you give me if I stay in that room for 3 times of that you suggested! For 15 years?” All the company got silent! No one could speak, and all looks turned to the Lord! Lord thought “it would be a wonderful contest, and I can get a lot of money, at the same time show off my generosity to all these stingy people!” Then he said “ok! I bet you can not even tolerate the first year! But if you can complete, I … I will give you one-third of my all properties!” every one got excited and they began to bet on him, whether he could or could not! The young man accepted but said “I just need books and you should promise me that provide me every kinds of books. “ Lord accepted, and then they accompanied him to that empty room, just with a wooden table and a bed, a small room in his palace with a wooden door, and a small window faced to the beautiful garden full of cherry trees.

The challenging started, and all people got excited and then left him alone in the room. First day, he was thinking about his childish act “why did I do that? Why should I be here and prison myself and lose the best time of my life, 15 years!”

He some times read books, some times walked and some times looked out through the window. After two weeks of his presence in that room, he just sat and read books, and then he thought for long times, then again read and read.

Within a year he could learn French and he was able to read books and writings in French, whenever he needed some books, he wrote on a piece of paper and put it out of window and Lord brought him that books.

After 2 years he was able to read and write into 3 languages, he knew a lot of people, characteristics and philosophers. Scientists, kings, history…

Years passed and passed. Lord every week came and peeled him through the crack of the door; he always was sitting on the seat and reading books, no other movement! He always checked the books he wanted, language, philosophy, history, science, religion … and he provided them all as he promised!

15 years passed! The time of opening of the door was reaching! Lord got worried! His properties had got much worthier than 15 years ago! Of course, he would lose some other properties that betted on them with those stingy people! He made his mind “why do I have to give my properties to him or others? Now I got old and I need my properties much more than before, I can not give up. He would die in a natural death, why not?!”

He stole to the room, and peeled through the crack, saw the man, a man in his forties, with a white long hair and long gray beard, a thin man without any motion sat on the chair and a book in front of him was open! For a long time, he watched him, and no movement he made. “Is he alive? Or dead?” he thought by himself. Then he took a bat and opened the door, still man did not move. He approached him stealingly, and then hit him by his head. His head fell on the table smoothly, and he died! Then Lord got closer and saw a paper under his hand:

“finally the time of releasing from this prison is reaching! I can not say I lost my life, otherwise, during these years, I could learn 6 languages to read, and write and even to speak! I can understand the world, the essence of being and the goal of creation and existence, I can even understand what animals say, what plants and trees want to tell, … I can perceive the world, the creator, the only God; I now understand that how ambitious I was already! I do not need any thing! Every thing is within myself! Every energy and every every need I have had are in myself! The power God blesses me is so great that I could understand just some parts of that. I will tell the Lord “I do not want your money or properties, I could understand and know myself and now I have something that is much worthier than whatever you have or all people around you have, or even there is in the world.””

نوشته شده توسط Yaser Mousavi در 2:1 PM | لینک ثابت •

Sat 16 Feb 2008

The original love is expressing generation, concern, respect, responsibility and understanding. Love does not mean to affect in the concept of being affected and being influenced by somebody, but it is a positive attempt for growth and happiness of beloved one that is based on loving ability.

Loving is an expression of love force and loving others is changing of potential forces into real ones and concentrating these forces on desired one. The romantic notion that in the world human can express his love just for one person, finding her is a great chance for him, is not correct; also this notion that expression of love to that single person is getting back the love from others is wrong, too. A love that is expressed only for one person is not loving, but it is a symbiosis dependence!

Ignorance and Rejection the greatest Punishment

The writing in Gospel about Cain’s crime and his punishment is a classic imagine of this fact that human is not forced by punishment, but he is afraid of being rejected. God accepted Abel’s gifts but refused Cain’s presents. God did the worst act against a human that could not survive without acceptance from a source of power without any reason.

God refused his presents and this meant his rejection. This rejection was not bearable for Cain. So he killed his rival who deprived him from acceptance. What was his punishment? He was not killed or even he was not bothered anymore; in fact God forbid his killing (a sign he had, was preserving him from being killed). His punishment was rejection; after God’s rejection, he got away of his relatives. Cain expressed the extremeness of this punishment in this sentence “ my punishment is far unbearable for me!”

The main and original sin is disobedience before the laws of source of power. So obedience is the capital sin and obedience is the greatest virtue. Obedience means confirmation of source of power’s strength and wisdom and confirms his right of governing, punishing or awarding according to his own orders and regulations. The source of power wants surrounding and condescension.

Generative Humanistic Conscience

Arthritic sinful conscience paradoxically results from the feeling of power, independence, generative ness and proud ness. While an arthritic good conscience results the feeling of obedience, functionality, disability and guiltiness.

The feeling of sin not only is the result of dependence to an unreasonable source of power, and this belief that one has a duty to satisfy and please HIM, but the feeling of sin is the most effective tool to establish and to increase this dependence.

A humanistic conscience means any reaction of ours towards ourselves, deeds, thoughts and feelings that lead us to correct actions and expresses our personalities. In general a feeling of inner confirmation and correctness are features of a good humanistic conscience. On the other hand, deeds, thoughts and feelings that are harmful fr our personalities make us bothered and sad that are features of a sinful humanistic conscience.

Love means confirming of potential adjectives, concerns, and respect to individual features of beloved one, so we can say rightfully that humanistic conscience is the lovely proclamation of our concern towards ourselves.

The humanistic conscience expresses individual interests and human’s correctness; while authentic conscience considers obedience, self-sacrifice, social class or judgment. The aim of humanistic conscience is generative ness and as a result is happiness since happiness is needed for a generative life.

Paralysis of “self” by becoming tool for others, to whatever respectful apparently, without “self” is unhappiness, undertaking to chance and discourage ness, all, are against the wanting of one’s conscience.

Any disobedience and offending from correctness and desired duty of our personality, from the view point of though and practice, or even from the view point of taste in food and sexual behavior is an offending and a disobedience from conscience orders.

Human does not know the correct way of listening to his conscience; for listening to our conscience’s proclaims, we should be able to listen to our “selves” and this is what that is so difficult for our people in our culture. Listening to “self” is very hard because this art needs another ability that is rare in nowadays` human: retired and solitude with the “self”. The fear of being alone with ourselves is because of disturbance feeling; is the fear of seeing somebody at the same time of close familiarity is stranger with us, so we frighten and run away of ourselves.

(my idea: human sometimes needs to be alone, to retire with himself and to separate from everything around him; sometimes it is good for him to be lazy! Once Lisa said “ I just expect my husband that some times lets me be alone and leaves me with myself. He must understand those occasions I need to be alone.)

Listening to the inaudible and unclear voice of conscience has another difficulty, too. And that is our conscience speaks with us indirectly, and we do not know that this is our conscience that offends us. Maybe because of some reasons that do not have clear relation with our conscience, we feel worried (or even sickness). Maybe the most frequently is a vague feeling of sin and disturbance, or is a feeling of tiredness and faint.

Maybe human can ignore his consciences voice completely as does not hear it any more, but this is not possible when he is asleep. During the day, one closes his ears against conscience’s voice, and only considers his inner experiences that consist of unreasonable attempts and unreasonable inert insights and values. Sleeping is the only occasion that human can not keep his own conscience silent, but regret is that when we hear its voice within our sleeping, we can not do any act and when we are able to act to that, we have already forgot what perceived of our dreams.

To be suggested to a famous writer that exchanges his personality and rank with money and fame. He saw a dream while he was thinking of accepting or rejecting of this suggestion; he dreamed that while he was driving, he saw two people in the foot of a mountain, who because of their opportunitism were subject to his ignorance and contempt. They both suggested to him to drive on the narrow road to the peak; the writer accepted and drove but near the peak, his car went out of road and he was killed- his generative ness and his humanistic personality.

Happiness and Enjoyment

Happiness is not the reward of virtue; otherwise it is the virtue, itself. Limitation of lusts and passions is not the cause for the enjoyment of happiness, unlike since we enjoy happiness, so we can limit lusts.

Spinoza

The real delight ness is in the relaxation and calmness of mind and the lack of fear; one can get it that is provident and far-sighted and prefers continuous and permanent satisfaction together with relation rather than temporal and instant enjoyment.

Epicure

Happiness is a pass way that is from less perfect ness to more perfect ness and gloom and sadness are path ways from more perfect ness to less one.

Spinoza

Happiness shows that human has found a response to his existence: it is putting his potential forces into practice that its result is preserving of one’s esteem and at the same time to be in the company of others. Human increases his forces by spending his energies, he burns without being finished.

Generative Faith

Unreasonable faith means considering a thing realistic and true that the source of power, or majority think so; the root of reasonable faith is in independence belief based on private observations and generative thinking.

Faith means acceptance of soul’s confirmations; and unfaith ness is denial of them.

Emerson

Can human live without any faith? Should not a newborn faith in mother’s breast? Should not we believe in our relatives? In our beloved ones? And in ourselves? Can we live without faith in worth of our lives` norms? In fact, human is alone and is without any friend, any hope and he is feared and afraid up to the deepest corners of his existence.

Unreasonable faith is a strong, stable and fanatical belief towards a person or a thing and is surrounding to an unreasonable source of power with a real personality or unreal one. Unlike, reasonable faith is a strong, continuous and stable belief that is based on wisdom generatively and emotional activities. In reasonable thinking that principally faith should have no where in, reasonable faith is one of the crucial components.

In unreasonable faith, people accept the ideas of the leader because semi-hypnotism they have surrounded to the source of power.

Hitler says “ now (at night) the prominent talent in speech can easily conquer the wills, because the number of individuals who weaken their residence power, naturally is much more than those who govern their energies and power of their wills.”

Thinking and judgment are not only the realm of experience within which the reasonable faith appears. In the terms of humanistic relationships, faith is a quality of friendship and meaningful love that can not be ignored. To believe in somebody means having trust on her trustfulness and stability of her fundamental trends and orientations and deep corners of her personality.

Just one can faith and believe in others that has faith and believe in himself, because he is sure that in the future, too, he will be as the same as today; he will feel and practice like his today. Believing in “self” gives us the ability of promising, as Niche told “we can define human over amounts of his promises, so believing and faith in “self” is one of the conditions of human existence.

Not goodness nor badness, none of them, are by itself and are pre-imagined. Making decisions is by human, depends on his abilities in endeavoring and keeping himself, his life, his happiness and his enjoyment serious, and depends on his trend towards facing with his moral issues and his society’s moralities. All of these depend on human’s braveness to be “himself” and to be for “himself”.

نوشته شده توسط Yaser Mousavi در 1:3 PM | لینک ثابت •

Sat 16 Feb 2008

Not only do they depend on the sources of power in knowledge and help, but also generally they need to be supported by others, too. In their loneliness, they feel bewildered since they see without the help of others, they can not do anything. This disability, from the point of that one especially, when he must do some tasks, which must be done lonely in essence, it gets much more important. For example, in their personal affairs, they consult with the person who they want to make up their minds towards her.

These people are interested so much in eating and drinking and try win over their wariness and depression by eating and drinking. Their mouth is the most crucial organ of their bodies, and always is open for receiving food. In their dreams, frequently they see eating that is the symbol of to be loved or they see hunger which is interpreted as depression and haplessness.

Generally these kinds of people are pessimists and very kind. They believe in life and all its blessings but as soon as their supply source is threatened, get worried. They have sincere affections and they are so passionate to help others, but helping others is just for supplying their own safety, too.

Positive aspects

Acceptable

Sensitive

Familiar and devoted

Humble

Charming and attractive

Compoundable

Social agreement

Idealist

Sensitive

Polite

Trustee

Compassionate

Negative aspects

Uncreative

Unbeliever, uncharacteristic

Condescended

Proud less

Parasite

Non-methodical

Servant like, lack of self confidence

Unrealistic

Coward

Unwillingness

Imaginative

Deceivable

Tense

Exploitive orientation: the base and foundation of this orientation like receptor one in on this feeling that the source of all goodness is in outside world and all wants and needs must be looked for in that source, and person, himself, can not provide anything. The different between these two orientations is that in exploitive orientation, the person does not expect that the receiving of his own wanting is not as a gift from others, otherwise, he gets them by force, or by deceiving and trick. This orientation contains all his activities.

In the realm of affection and love these kinds of people want to steal and rob. They think that they are paid attention by somebody who they have taken her from another one. From their point of view, the condition for being paid attention is depending on other one. They do not love a free and independent one.

These people are not creators of thought and idea, but they steal it from others, and pretend that these noble notions belong to themselves. Form their point of view, a thing that is taken from others is better than a thing that they, themselves, create. They exploit persons or things seized from others; since they like exploiting, they love people who they can target their exploitation on them implicitly or directly, and as soon as they use them completely, they hate them!

One of these people `s symbols is teasing. This routine is mixed with hostility and smartness. Everyone is the target of exploitation and is judged according to his usefulness. These people unlike receptors ones who are optimist and confident are pessimist and suspicious and jealous because only their seizing from others makes them satisfied and they think of what they themselves have is worthless, but others` worthier than their own

Positive aspects

Energetic

Honored

Proud

Active

Self-confident

Charming

Negative aspects

Exploitative

Able to ask

Boastful

Offender

Selfish

Seducing

ones forces people to trust less in what they gain from outside world. Their security and safety is in saving and amassing and they think spending money is a threat. These people are stingy in feelings and thoughts, like money and materials. In their point of view, love is a belonging; they do not show love or they do not love others, but they try to get their beloved one by an ownership relation. These people usually have a special belief and faithfulness towards others and memories.

نوشته شده توسط Yaser Mousavi در 10:57 AM | لینک ثابت •

Thu 14 Feb 2008

To day is valentine day, and I think there is no one that he or she does not have any love, if even there is no love, but always there are some friends that think of you and send you some greetings or messages, sms or off, but what happen if your LOVE sends you a massage of loving and friendship?!!! I am still waiting … she may send some thing… (I have sent her already… almost 10 days ago an e card, and it was to deliver to her today! Of course, I know she does not such affairs… but I do not know I am worried and nervous, waiting for her any massage! Am I ok? Is it natural? Some times I get laughed at myself!!!!)

That Aash festival… remember?!!! Narcissi has got some photos and I put them here, you can download them and see what it was like… I think not bad it was… but the photographer was amateur and they are not taken from good angels.

http://www.4shared.com/file/37766096/955d3fa0/______.html

for some other interesting photos click here

http://www.4shared.com/file/37401509/46e8e424/IRAN-ZANJAN.html

http://www.4shared.com/file/37402003/b243603f/IRAN-ZANJAN-MYHOUSE.html

http://www.4shared.com/file/37401106/d15e5169/IRAN-ZABOL.html

http://www.4shared.com/file/37399979/d512f1a1/IRAN-RAMSAR.html

http://www.4shared.com/file/37399413/6b452c6a/IRAN-KONG.html

http://www.4shared.com/file/37400247/78cf7dc7/IRAN-KASHAN.html

and some English tests for interested friends

http://www.4shared.com/file/37510499/d868a82a/English_Placement_Test.html

http://www.4shared.com/file/37510818/6eacebd0/Sample_English_Vocabulary_tests.html

http://www.4shared.com/file/37511004/c8aea067/TOEFL_SAMPLE_TESTS.html