Today when I was on I saw Lisa is on, too, but you know, I rarely start a conversation maybe my friend is busy or may be he or she does not like to talk to me. But she began the conversation and said hi, I started, and the feeling of hope and love filled up my soul, my heart began to thump so fast and my head got hot… she is so cheerful even behind the web! Suddenly she asked me “can I ask you some thing?” I said “yes, why not, whatever you like…” she continued “is it possible to see you? Do you any time?” I got surprised! It was my heart`s words, only God knows how much I liked to see her, to talk to her, to express my LOVE, but just because of my condition and because I have not wanted to lose her, too, I decided not to speak to her until I reach to my good condition, especially financially, my job, so I decided to talk to her after my job fixed, I mean the bank replies me or other job, may be… but she asked herself to see me! I got worried and said “ok, no matter, it is my pleasure, but can I ask you about what are you going to speak to me?” she said “ I will tell you, I gonna talk to you face to face! Because my connection has got some problems I could not talk to you,” and then I said “ok, I hope you will not make me stroke! “ she got surprised and told “No! do not worry!” and then I wanted to invite her for a lunch, or to a coffee shop, but she said that it is better to see each other in Rayane Daneshgah. I did not like to see her there, it is her place of work, and mine, of course and I do not like bother her any more! But I accepted and she was to call me to make the date!

I got so worried and depressed now! Why Lisa…? Why are you doing such a thing to me?!!! I guess what she is speaking about! I think she has thought about my LOVE towards her and she has considered my conditions, my weakness, my past, my family and may be my future then she made her mind to say my proposal “NO!”… but it is not fair! I mean… I am not in my strong times and stable one… I have been going to speak about those affairs after my condition gets better and it is stable! I do not want to lose her, too! My God… help me…please… I need her and her LOVE and kindness… do not get her form me… ok?!!!

What do you think? What is she going to talk about? Tell me please… help me my friends… help me… now I am so depressed and worried that I can not describe it… you must understand me… my friends…   

Yesterday I encountered with an article in the newspaper that attracted my attention and I read it; it was about SATANISM. Have you heard any thing about it? I have, but not completely. I read it and then a feeling of antipathy filled up my soul and my heart when I knew more about these groups… I wonder why the human is seeking to find some ways to please himself more and more in this mortal world and life, breaking the rules and preventing form God, the Everlasting and the Mighty, the source of power and the source of Light, the source of affection and love…

I am so sorry to speak about these kinds of people, almost we can not call them even people but savage animals… unfortunately if we do not do any thing to prevent them form making progress in our world, they will destroy our beautiful world with their deeds, evil deeds and no thing can we do then! It is our duty one by one to stand before this EVIL and SATAN or we Iranians call it AHRIMAN who rebels against our kind God, the only God, ALLAH, to destroy the world and to defeat the history of human being since the beginning of the creation up to now… to whatever the great people, prophet, Imams and we struggled about and against to survive the humanity and goodness, to spread the justice and brotherhood all over the world… but they want destroy every thing and they want to get human to the darkest, dirtiest and … places while our great God directs us into light, happiness and perfection… so I feel it is my duty to oppose against these groups even though I can not do any thing especially but just from here to inform my friends from this the greatest danger of our civilization.

A little, about their history I wanna speak, and then I will deal with their behaviors and rules and their followers in our country.

Cabalism is the Gnosticism of Jew religion and has been affected by Islamic knowledge and is the mysterious part of Jew religion. One of its main sub-groups is Satanism, which established almost from 18^th century and took its advances in 1960s. form it’s the most apparent features that caused it grow through people, especially the youngs, is its bindings with music, especially heavy metal and Metallica, and followers are among musicians, singers and actors and actresses. Madonna, the American actress has recently joined to the Cabalists.

These people as I mentioned want to follow Satan to the darkest points and places, by doing any evil act and deed, the most savage and cruel, such as murdering, sexual violence and invade, which not only these evil deeds are not punished but even they are encouraged and considered as privileges for the members, the greater the number of murders and sexual invasion, the greater the rank in the group!

They work under the net and mostly by weblogs and after contacting with their victims, send them some files and some mails then make some appointments and finally attract them to the group. So my friends be careful so much with who are you talking on the net and whose weblog you read and use! Remember God is always there and He helps us just remember Him and trust in Him. He is the greater, the mighty and the powerful everlasting, the source of kindness and love and perfection.

Tell me your ideas via yaserymc@yahoo.com or yaser.saba@gmail.com

This noon, I was connected to gmail, as usual, that suddenly I heard the ding of message which was Zeinab, after almost 6 months of no news, strangely asked me if minded having talk some minutes! I said yes… and she continued “did you know about your daddy`s calls to me?” I said “ no, just I heard some times he called you at the early times when I was not here…” she said “he called me two days ago… and threatened me to sue against me to the court to get back those jewelries and gifts you gave me… but you told me that you do not want them… and if you need and are in hard up I will give you but as you know I do not like to blackmail to him any more!” I got surprised but then I got calm with the knowledge that every thing she says is right towards my father, unfortunately, so I told “take it easy…I won`t allow him to do any thing… as I told you whatever I gave you as my love and a gift is yours and legible for you… he has no right to do any thing against you… I will pay his debt to its end cent! I will speak with him and he will not call you any more, if he did, you would tell me!” she said “ok.” Then she asked “what are you doing?” I asked “about what?” she said “ every thing… your life… how are you?” I said “psychologically I have not got along with the issue and there is no night that I haven`t seen your dreams, to be frank, you may not believe…” she asked “what did you dream?” I did not answered her, but my eyes got tearful… and my heart began to thump fast… my hands started to shake… and could not continue any more and told her good bye. But she told “are you inconvenienced with me?” I said “every thing will pass… it will pass, too.” She said “ I am at my office in the afternoons and in the mornings I am at Tose. I asked “is it for yourself? Does any body interfere you? Is every thing ok?” she answered “yes, it is for myself and there is no body to interfere me, and every thing is ok… I will go Malaysia next year to continue my educations in MBA, if God willing, what are you doing?” I said “as usual I am teaching in institutes, I will be manager of Apadana next year, and I have accepted in bank but not yet they have announced it formally…” she said “ I am happy to hear that... you must be independent financially first …” I said “yes, I know it… and I got so happy that when I heard you have your own office and business and some people are working for you… you are independent of every one now that I always wanted and liked and now I feel relaxed my friend… bye!” and it was finished but again I got depressed and then when I was alone, I cried and cried… I know I am strange and it may seem to be childish and emotional but what could I do? I need my LISA to calm me, but she is not so kind to me that I can count on her nay more to make me in peace and relax… my God…my God…

Meeting teachers of high school and pre- university after almost 10 years, especially the teacher that you love him and was your teacher more than 7 years is really fantastic and interesting! i some times go high school or Alhadi pre university to see my teachers most of them were my teachers for more than 4 years, one of them, Mr. Nabaie, my English teacher, who encouraged me to learn English, was my teacher for more than 7 years, since the beginning of English to say them hello and greet with them. it makes them so happy and proud that the light of proudness in their eyes is too shinny that you can see its blinking from miles away! I , myself, also get so happy that appreciating them just in this little worthy way!

I went to see Mr. Nabaie and I waited out of his class for more than an hour, not liking to interrupt his teaching, while I was listening to his voice and English teaching reminding the lessons and classes, classmates and a lot of other memories of school years… I remember all of my classmates who now some keep in touch, some are reaching to high levels of education, some not, some working some married, and some still going military service! I remember  our playing football after each class in the park, in the yard of the school, in the summer, fall and even in the winter under heavy snowing and freezing weather, while we were sliding instead of running over the ball, when I put off three balls at the same match… how amazing times they were! My classmates Rouholla, now is M.S in physics and is going to take P.H.D, Yousef, is B.S in power engineering, now going to military, Iraj, B.S in mathematics, now working in Roghane Jahan Co, Morteza, M.S in mechanic engineering, working in TESKO, Amin, B.S in civil engineering, Hojat, A.D in computers finishing hie military service now, Ali, M.S in computer scince now teaching in Payame nour university, Rahmat a police officer, and so many others that could not continue their educations and now work as worker in some other companies.

In the high school, we played every activity and sport that you can imagine! Form football and volleyball, to basketball and even chess! Wonderful it was!

Yes, I stood in an empty class over it I watched the mountains all around our city and how beautiful view it was form there! He, Nabaie, when saw me, got surprised, but made some jokes and then we laughed. We spoke about my affairs and my job… my trip to south and Pakistan… but within 15 minutes!

By the way… to day again I did some thing childish maybe! Or some thing emotional! Why?! We had a class in Rayane Daneshgah institute with Sahar and her friends, and I went the class, then I gave two books that I have already bought for Lisa for her Valentine, to Sahar to handle them to her and just it slipped of my tongue that I said “give them Lisa, she may have gotten angry at me… because I did some thing naughty… and I wanna make her happy…” I guess she did understand the whole story of my LOVE towards Lisa… but not important… good news is that informally, one ,y daddy`s friends called him yesterday that his brother works in Harasat and they have finished my selection tests and they asked him some questions about me, such as “ is he the one who writes articles? And is a translator?” and he answered “yes, “ and then they said that I have been accepted and within a week or two they will inform me! I hope so, but as long as I will not personally take a part in the bank, I won`t tell it to some body, especially my Lisa… and I have not allowed the sister to speak with her about me… I just felt that she might reject my love now… under my nowadays condition and I postponed it until getting some news of bank and with good news going on with the hope of the acceptance of my LOVE by her!