Sun 18 May 2008
As I have always tolled, every person has influence our minds and moods but this maybe positive or negative. Unfortunately those who affect negatively are much more than those who have positive effects! Some times very little act of some body gives you so much energy that you positively feel better and like to keep on the job, the work, the relationship, while for those who have negative energy, this is opposite! They make it worse and you get so depressed that you do not like to continue the job any more! Yesterday, a girl, then a boy came to me, both brought a bill of 10000 Rials to get it back to me because the counting of mine of the bands of the bills were extra. You know, the amount of money is not important, but this little act showed me that still there are some people who are honest and frank and who know the only God! This made me feel better and consider the job not as worse as I have thought before!
My new class, in which my cousin and my unkind aunt are studying, too, is so so! They are not in the level of proficiency as I expected, especially two of them and especially one of them who has had got some negative feelings about language and learning it and her abilities, mostly due to the unsuitable acts and reacts of the previous teachers, and I feel urgent that I have to reform her concepts against her ideas about herself and the language! The teacher is the responsible for the feelings of his students and their ideas which mostly again, a few teachers deal with, even those who are professional and experienced, even Mr. Moghanlou, even Mr. Khani and others! I wonder how they can ignore this simple principle of teaching!!!! I remember that once Lisa was criticizing Mr. Moghanlou`s method of teaching and mostly his behaviors in the class that really made me surprised! Mrs. Rezayee also reminded me the story, too, recently and quoted Lisa`s remarks about the classes she had had with me and with Mr. Moghanlou, and now I can definitely understand that why she das not continued her English in the excuse of being busy and having lessons and has to study in the university. Mr. Moghanlou is responsible for this interrupted feelings and emotions! I never have succeeded to get her back to study English, maybe just because we have not had any contact and communication with together! But now I am not her teacher any more… so I can not do any thing for her... she has to make her mind herself! The same story has happened to Sabrina, another nice student from Lengeh, and she has to make her mind too!
Wed 14 May 2008
Yesterday evening, I saw Sam, one of my previous students, and of course the best ones! I have to confess that among girls, it was Lisa that I gave her complete 100 score, then Romina, and among boys, it was Sam who I gave him the complete score! His English is really great, but he never wants to accept the reality and always thinks that his abilities are limited and he can not ever reach to the native like fluency expected! He is too sensible, but to be frank, his English has got so great!
We were walking along the Sadi street and speaking English. He liked that! And you know… all the people around us got surprised in how we were talking and they were showing us to each other “hey… see… how great they are talking English!” I did not like that… but I had to go Sadi Vasat to do some job! He was with me, and like me, did not like those people!
By the way, I always use whatever chance I can have to help my students get English much better and better, especially if the situation is as authentic as possible!
Today, Mr. Moghanlou gave me another class, and canceled my previous class with my previous students who liked to have the class with me! His action got me surprised, but he is the manager and whatever he says, I will do! I always respect him and his ideas, even if they are against mine! My new class is so much upper than them, but namely, because their previous teachers have not worked with them properly. Zahra and Fariba, my aunt and my cousin, are also among the students! I dislike my aunt but the cousin no, she is ok, and despite I do not like her ideas and her behaviors! I do not want to have the class, but I have to tolerate them! What can I do so?!!!!!!!!!!!
Tue 13 May 2008
Do you remember a girl who was my student, once, and then turned to be my friend, and she has got herself into bad trouble, having sex with her boy friend, who had not loved her any more!? Remember?!! It was long time that I have not heard of her until today she called me and after greetings, she get cried so hard that I said “what`s the matter?” she told “I need your help, my teacher! You don`t know what has happened to me?!! I just want some money and I have to leave here, every where not here!” I said “ok, don`t worry! I will help you! Just let`s see each other and then tell me what happened and then we will consider the issue!” she continued “my dear teacher… help me go abroad… but not now… may be after two months!” I said “but to go abroad… you need to have your TOEFL score, … you have to study!” she said “ok, I will… just help me… but please do not pretend that for easing my mind promising so!” I said “NO! be sure… you can count on me… whatever I can do, I will do for you… just come to see what happened!”
She came Apadana, and when she saw me… she mourned! She was so pity and so sad that you could feel she got too old, too sick, too … she was crying… she was sobbing… I barely could calm her down… then she began her story that her boy friend does not like her any more and wants to abandon her! She was feeling so nervous and worried that rarely could she control her feelings! She continued “he encouraged me to do surgery on my vagina to sew the BEKART membrane to make her a girl again! I got surprised! And I got so surprised when I heard that she did the operation! And it was not working and then it has got inflamed and now she has to do another operation! I blamed her why she did not tell me any thing, … she had not needed to do any thing…. Just as I told her to let the time pass and pretend nothing had happened! But she did not listen to me! By the way… again she got so emotional that asked me to help her to leave the country! I said “no matter, but it must be on a fixed program! You must think before hand and with a good program do that! Not just running away of your problems… “She said “ok… whatever you tell…” I said “you can go abroad for continuing your educations… you can go Malaysia, or India, but you need English and it takes almost a year to have the acceptable proficiency.” She said “no matter, I made my mind… help me…” and I said “good we can have a private class and you must listen to me carefully and do whatever I tell you!” she promised.
You know why I encouraged her to do that?!!! It takes time and we need time! The time and passing time calms her down and gradually she gets better and then she can make her mind for her future… what do you think?!!! Have I made a good decision? Or should I reject her like others?!!! I do not know when Lisa hears this news… what will be her reaction?!!! I hope she can understand!
At the end when again, she started crying, I gave her a bucket of red, pink and white sweet smelly roses that I have cultivated in my beautiful small garden,… she got so surprised and happy and I could finally see the lights of hope and happiness in her black eyes… but again she began crying, but this time it was a happy one not depressed and disappointing!
As I promised the only God, I will do my best to help my friends first and then any body who really needs my actions! Go away… ZOROOOOOOOO is coming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
