I do not know how I can manage to do my affairs with this bad luckiness I have! Today again I got lost my money, this time doable, 1000000 Rials! How? I do not have any idea! I did my work so precisely and so carefully that I did never expect to have any any mistake, even a smallest! But I had!!!! And I had to pay back the amount plus the previous 500000 Rials! The money has not made me unhappy, nervous, and bad tempered, rather it is the behavior of people who come to the bank and when they recognize any mistake, they keep silent deliberately and take the money that does not belong to them any more, while they call themselves Muslims and believers to God! How stupid we are, when we claim some thing and do some thing else in fact! I do not like the job! I do not like the money! All my friends who know me completely can witness this but this is the force of the situation that I must bear that until I can get used to it! What do you think?!!! I think it is better for me that I resign just now and then follow my dreams and continue my studying until to be a university professor, or I have to bear this condition until the end and finally I could manage to do that! At the first losing of my money, the boss said “you see, here is completely different from the educational and scientific situation! You may be a knowledgeable man and a scientist, but here you must be so careful and exact and pay attention so deeply that as if you are standing on a min and it is going to exploit as soon as you leave your foot or press it! Every moment is vital and stressed and you have to concentrate on the job only!” but how can I do so… when almost all of my mind has been occupied with the love of Lisa and my terrible memories of the past!!!!???? How can I do my job well when I see every where Lisa`s portrait and in my mind… I am talking with her every moment?!!! How can I mange to do it when I do not know what Lisa is thinking of me or having any idea?!!!!