Sun 20 Jan 2008
Finally the January 21st arrived, and my two-month patient is going to its end just after some hours later! Do you know what I am talking about? I feel so worried and so impatient like a 18-year-old boy who is going to meet a loved girl for the first time of his life and to give her a present! But those days have already passed, neither am I 18-year-old, nor is it my first time to give a girl a present! But I wonder why I feel a butterfly in my stomach! Maybe I am afraid Lisa does not accept my present or maybe she does not even want to talk to me, or the worst one, she may ignore or reject my love towards her! Oh no! I can not bear this rejection, my dearest…! I know the condition of mine and hers, but I just want to thank her and her kindness, and to show her my love and whatever in my heart. She likes me, I am sure, many times she showed and said, but LOVING is differing from liking. Come on boy! Let`s call her now! The best deed, and then see what will happen! I know her, she is so respectful and great that will not hurt my feelings, or… but girls are so strange that no one can understand what in their minds are and what they do think!
I did not buy her a precious gift! I have thought a lot fro more than two months to decide what to buy her that suits her and she likes it, nothing I found unless books! Is it ridiculous? To give a girl who you love, a book, nothing else, even it is for the first time! I do not know! But as I know her, she is a deep girl, who loves studying and knowledge, philosophy, so do I. she must forgive me not giving her too much just a book of my favorite, “CHIMIST”. Even I wrote for her at the very beginning of the book, for that I have practiced to learn and improve my handwriting for more than two weeks! What can I do with these feelings in my heart? I always want the best for the one I love! I want the greatest things and greatest happiness for my love! It is beyond my control to prevent myself not to do that! I love Lisa! It is the fact!
If she accepts my gift and likes it, how happy I will be and how great passions will flow into my heart!
