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GOOD NEWS

yasermosavi — Sun, 20 Jul 2008 19:10:23 GMT

On Fridays, we get together in Abadan’s small back yard which I have made a small garden in, we gather and eat water melon and cheese, or other food and fruit, in the lovely and cool whether of sunrise it is great! We tall jokes and laugh, we make fun and try to have fun! Especially last Friday, it was very funny, mostly because of jokes of Mr. Mirsadeghi and making funs of Ms. Razaghi! I have not known that Ms. Razaghi is such a funny and friendly person, full of energy and very kind … she is so nice… I love her! Not even me, but also every body who sees her, loves her and likes her so much… of course in the class she is very strict and knowledgeable teacher, but little experience! May be just we differ in styles and methodology of teaching! But you know I am writing some aspects of the classes as a beginner in such classes to prepare a report and then cocequently an essay following, about the inhibitions that hinder acquisition and learning of a foeirng language especially for adults! I hope so, of course!

Today Ms. Yegane, my friend, and ex-workmate, was coming to see me! You know, she is very nice and very lovely girl! She is kind, patient, sociable and very very friendly who always laughs and smiles, but gracefully, not like Narcissus to make fun or not like Celine to act childish! (If Narcissi read these parts, she will definitely kill me!!!!) She was there and we really get happy when see each other, she has got a job in Jahade Daneshgahi University… you know she is Associated Diploma in computer science.

And I went SUB instead of Mr. Moghanlou`s class, my previous class, Parvane`s class, but still, that girl, Jenifer hates me and my classes! You see, I have wanted to help her to success and mange to her failures and difficulties, but she instead hates me! You know… she is not normal! She is mentally sick, in my idea! Of course Parvane and Mr. Moghanlou, himself agrees with me! Parvane again was not in good mood, you see, because of her sickness, and she had got so tired and had a bad headache that I asked her to leave the class to refresh herself and then return! But after finishing the class, she enthusiastically attends in my second class with boys and even gave a great lecture about DIAMONDS! She is very active and very very smart and clever! She consulted with me to enroll for the university in English translation course in B.A! I encouraged her… you see… in think it is the best major fro her instead of her previous major, BIOLOGY! I will help her to reach her goals… I promised her! I like her too much, and I guess she likes me, too! Thanks God…

And just the last thing, Lisa`s Mom gets better… she smsed me this evening… they returned her to the ward and … and she said that she has done a difficult test well… I am very happy! Thank you my God! And thanks you all for all of your nice prayaers…

yasermosavi — Fri, 18 Jul 2008 11:04:12 GMT

Yesterday I was interviewing some amputated and defeated people, between 10 to 36, to hold some English classes for them, of course freely! Some were blind, some were paralyzed, some were dyslexia and some were not able to speak!!!! But mostly, all of them were so intelligent and so clever that if they get proper instructions and teaching the will definitely be the best in language and can learn it within several months! Especially there was a girl, a-11-year-old girl, who was blind and very smart. When I asked her a question, she asked if she could answer in English! I hope I can do some thing for them! You see… when I saw these people, I did perceive that we, normal people, never gratitude what we have, never appreciate God as he deserves, as Imam Ali (peace been upon him) told once, and now I can understand what he was saying! We have lots of things that until we didn't lose them, we would never perceive to own them, such as health, good friends, good family,…

pray for us please! Lisa's mom has got worse and now she is in ICU…

yasermosavi — Tue, 15 Jul 2008 19:30:59 GMT

Today I was very neat and nicely dressed in the afternoon. I was wearing a short-slaved gray and blue shirt, ironed-neatly pants, clean-shaved and so handsome, beautiful!!!! All the workmates got surprised to see me!!!! (of course I always dress neatly in my classes!!!!) but for the first time, not wearing formal, as usual dark clothes, I wanted to add variety … but can you guess what the reaction of the Vice-manager was?!!! He said “it would be your last time to wear this kind of cloths and coming here!!!!” I just said “OKKKKKKKKKK!” really I disliked him! You know, now I can understand what girls and women feel when they are forced to wear clothes they do not like or just as a norm of tradition and society! Where is the freedom?!! They even select what you MUST wear! Yes! This is the fact that we live in such a society! I hate intervening in people`s lives and their personal lives and I, myself, never do it, nor even have I done! Hey! What can we do?!!! Of course… we must not keep silent and nothing tell! We must try to change it! How?!!! Tell me your ideas!!!

yasermosavi — Sun, 13 Jul 2008 20:04:19 GMT

to day i recieved my first salary as a bank employee! you know... it is low but it caused a great feeling of independance and happiness! i would never forget my first wages that i was got of my first translation project! by the way, i have finally managed to deliver most part of my loans gradually and gradually and then i can save money for begininh my new life and happy future with my love, Lisa, i hope so, of course! these days aliitle bit bussy, but i will try to write here and continue my novel as soon as possible, (to you ROMINA!!!) a

Women`s job and working

yasermosavi — Fri, 11 Jul 2008 10:24:54 GMT

Today I was attending in Mr. Moghanlou`s class, with Ms. Razaghi and two of other teachers… you know… I love his classes! There had been a discussion about the work of women in the society and I gave an idea which made all the girls and women in the class angry except Ms. Razaghi… I said” I am opposing the working of the women outside of the home! I like women and I do not want them to get troubled, angry, worried, work is just for men… the working setting is too harsh and too difficult that it definitely hurts their emotions and feelings… even part time jobs! Every activity that is for making money is not acceptable! You know, yesterday in the bank, one of the women, our colleague, made some problem, and one of the workmates quarreled with her, she got crying all the time!!!! Working is very important activity, it is not playing or it is not making fun! For women, if they take it as serious as men do, so when can they raise the children and when can they even please their husbands?!!!! For women the most important thing should be family and its issues, then work and job and making money! It is not necessary for women to make money; otherwise, they can do their lovely and favorite activities and enjoy their lives, their husbands and their children! Take apart in social activates just because of their enthusiasm in them! Just because they want to use their knowledge and talent and have a meaningful life! But just for making money and getting independent…. NOOOOOOOOO!

yasermosavi — Thu, 10 Jul 2008 19:12:25 GMT

Good news! Lisa's mom finally got operation and now she is better and today Lisa told they moved her to the ward, within 4 next days she will be left of the hospital. Lisa was happy and consequently I was happy too. I thanked God…

I have begun German class… I have loved it to learn… and now I am studying it… you see, first I want to learn it because I want to write a linguistic book about Turkish and therefore I need to learn it, too! I want to try to pass a regulation in the parliament to allow every ethnical group to learn its own mother tongue as their formal curriculum instead of Arabic during the educational period… and then I want to set myself in the place of my students when they are starting to learn a new and foreign language to get better understandings and then find some good solutions to help them to learn effectively… you see German language is too difficult… it needs a life time to learn it, even more than that! Even the native people of it do not know what the grammar is!!!! But I will do my best… Ms. Razaghi is my teacher…

And one thing else… I am taking tennis course with my students… some how I am teaching them!!!!

Surgery of mommy

yasermosavi — Wed, 02 Jul 2008 19:33:38 GMT

Every body who sees me, my colleagues I mean, says that as soon as I can, I go Tehran to live and work there! Why?!! Because, they say, here, in Zanjan, there is no room to improve, especially because of its people`s minds and thoughts, their behaviors and their culture! You see, I personally like Tehran, especially those beautiful locals and high class places, not crowded ones and not south of it, of course! And I like to live there, and then follow my programs and going abroad in foreign Currency Department of International Bank, in its foreign branches, but the only problem is … you see… Lisa! I love her and I do not want to lose her, too! But I guess she is very dependent on her family! She loves her family so much and undoubtedly she won’t come with me away of her family! Once, I asked her about where ideal to live? She said “wherever you are the most successful!” I asked “what about you?” she replied gracefully “I prefer to be less successful, but live by my family!” what do you think? Should I follow other`s idea? Which seems reasonable? Or should I obey my heart and whatever it says?!!!

By the way, tomorrow morning, they are going to do an operation on Lisa`s mother, God helps, it is really difficult challenging surgery, and please pray for her to get better as soon as possible! I was in Tehran on Monday to be near Lisa and mother, maybe she would need some help of me, (of course I called Lisa to see if there was any thing I could do, but she said that they did not do the operation because of the weakness of her mother`s heart, and it was postponed unto tomorrow! (Of course I did not tell Lisa that I went Tehran just because of her and her mother!!!)) I hope mother gets better soon and consequently my Lisa gets calm and relaxed more… she even could not study for her exams and I guess she would fail this term, her last term of studies!!! God, please the mother and my Lisa!!!! Ok???!!!!

LISA IS LIKE OTHER GIRLS, A NORMAL ONE!!!!

yasermosavi — Sun, 29 Jun 2008 14:59:16 GMT

Yesterday afternoon, I was wandering in the streets that suddenly I found myself in front of the office which I had rented to establish my translation house, with my ex-wife and which after divorce, I handled it totally to her and helped her to establish her own commercial company. A lot of nice and bad memories filled up my mind and immediately caused me depressed and discharged of energy! The sense of disapproving which had caused me to leave my home and to go to the south to forget every thing! And only Lisa could help me to overcome. Yes, the same, disgusting feeling of reminding of past memories… by the way, I got so depressed that I did not like to do any thing or to see or talk any body, just Lisa!!! I could not stop myself not to disturbing her… sent her a message and asked her to help me to overcome the issue, I explained her that the same feeling after almost several months suddenly embodied in my mind and that I need her and her prayers … she did not reply until the midnight, that I was asleep, she told “you are thinking that you are unthankful to God?!!! In the case, so what should I do?!!! If you were in my position what would you do?!!! It is the night of tomorrow-up-coming exam which I have not studied any thing, my mom is sick, and is in the hospital waiting for a surgery on her Gloater organ … I ask you and your respectful family please please pray for her to get better!!! “When I heard this news, I got sad! First, I am a stranger for her still! I have not known anything about her mother`s health problem, she has not told me any thing! Second, the effect that my sms had on her! She will definitely think that I am too emotional and too sensitive and too uncertain that she can not count on me any more! She can not relay on me against the troubles of the life and instead I would do so! You know, girls always seek for strong men who they can always relay on them in any condition… not people like me, weak and emotional, (really?!!! Am I so?!!!) The more I try to control my feelings and not expressing them, especially to the girls, the less I could succeed and this behavior has a negative influence on my audiences of my personal life! Suggest me to do some thing for that! How can I compensate this negative feeling that I let on Lisa????!!!! In the morning, after I prayed, I sent sms to Lisa to tell her that she is important for me and I can understand her feelings and nowadays situation… I have prayed for her… she is like other normal people! She sometimes gets angry, sometimes gets tired and bored, some times cries and some times laughs… she is an ordinary girl like others, a human, but the image which I have created of her in my mind is my ideal girl, maybe far away differs from the reality, exactly like my ex-wife which caused a lot of problems… the only difference between her and me is that SHE NEVER EXPRESSE HER FEELINGS OR HER THOUGHTS AND IDEAS, ESPECIALLY WITHIN THE DOMAIN OF EMOTIONS AND FEELINGS!!! for this what can I do?!!! Please suggest your ideas… every body… I need your helps… ok?!!!

Moving Apadana!

yasermosavi — Sun, 22 Jun 2008 18:10:59 GMT

We finally moved Apadana`s first branch yesterday, where we have been to for 4 years, and where I have had a lot of memories, nice and beautiful memories of nice people, my Lisa, … ! We moved to our new branch which is ours and I located in Darvazeh Ark. It took more than 6 hours to pack the things and move… we did it alone, me and Mr. Moghanlou.

In the morning, I gave my class examination, Parvaneh and others, she got top, but she was little inconvenience about the result! She was criticizing me that I discriminate among students!!!! Why? Because I gave other students some marks extra and for her no! I just wanted to encourage and motivate the students, weaker ones, but she is so nice and intelligent and smart that there was no need to encourage her with extra MARKS!!! I encourage her in other ways, giving her movies, chatting with her, sending sms… but she does not pay attention to these things and just feels jealous and … no matter… she is a girl like other girls! Strange and unknown!!!!

Today the other class of mine finished and I could be proud! They improved their English remarkably! Just Antonio, a 26-27 year-old man, married and too busy, could not come to the class for more than just 6 sessions form the beginning! But I myself called him and asked him to join us and do not to interrupt English in any way… he got so happy and said “ok, he will come to take the exam next week, I called Behnam and Mousavi, too, but they can not come to the class unfortunately. You do not guess how sad I get when I see that my students abandon English and class without getting any benefit, while if they struggled little more, they definitely would be successful!

Yesterday after finishing moving, Mr. Moghanlou and his friend and I went Karvensara Sangi to eat dinner, there they spoke a lot about politics, president, the deeds he has done and WISE!!!! Words he has told, you know… I hate politics… it is full of lie and unfaithfulness, I hate speaking about our president! (I wonder who called him president and who even elected him!!!! I hope this time he would not be elected! ((Unfortunately he WOULD!!!!!))) By the way, whenever I think about politics, our government and our system of controlling the nation, I get unconsciously disappointed and so sad that I want to abandon every every thing and die!!! In these times, you see, to be frank, thinking of LISA and living with HER, and her kindness gets me energy to bear and control myself! I just like, in these occasions, to make love with LISA and forget every every thing! But how?!!!! My God… you can understand me… I need her… please…. Hey hey hey!!!

Old people

yasermosavi — Thu, 19 Jun 2008 18:48:21 GMT

Old people are always respectful and they must be respected in any way and in any condition... they are the lights of life and the sources of knowledge and experiences that are completely different form ours, i.e. not academic, nor even written, otherwise, by heart and by mind. I love old people and always I try hard to help them in any way, mostly financially and some times physically… you see, I love talking to them, listening to their tales of their youth ages, whatever they have done and they wanted to do, their ambitions and their hopes for the future… you know, the fact is that we all think that we never get old and that we are completely and absolutely different from those creatures with bowed backs, scratched skins, hole-taken eyes, bold heads, sometimes little gray and white hairs on, ones with a stick in their hands, bending over their legs, hardly can move and walk, taking pills and medicine and always complaining about their bodies` pain! Am I right?!!! But remember that they were some day young girls and boys full of enjoyment and happiness, full of energy and hopes for the future, bold, brave, strong and beautiful, … and we will reach that point, too!!!!

I hate retire some! You just sit and wait until your death came over! In this case I prefer to welcome the death and do suicide! There is an old man in our neighborhood, which is not able to work, and he is alone, too! He lives with his son, and his family but he is alone! I can feel from the deepest corners on my heart... you see… he has nothing to do except sitting on the curb or beside a wall in the shadow a looking around and counting the seconds to pass until he could pray! And again and again, every day and every day, wasting the golden times of the unique event, the miracle of the nature, the life, to finish! Not just him, but there are so many many the same old people who are just sitting nonsense and waiting to death to come! I hate to be like these men! I will never have retired some, if yes, I definitely would select my own way of death… I believe inactivity and stop is death itself, even worse than it, a human never ever stop or abandon struggling and challenging, life if challenging and struggling…